Hi. I am a survivor of childhood sexual assult and suffer with PTSD. I have been working really hard on my journey to wellness (seeing a psychologist, mindfulness, lots of self care etc) but some days I can't even think in a straight line, my head just feels scrambled. During my therapy I have become the master of avoidance and I over organise and plan for sessions before I go so that i take the safe way out and avoid the exposure therapy I should be doing. I don't even mean to do it but the instinct to protect myself is so strong. I'm a couple of days out from my next appointment so I'm thinking that's why I'm feeling so muddled but I feel that it's getting in the way of me making more progress during these sessions. Any suggestions on how to help in this situation??
I used to live yoga and have done yoga with Adrienne a few times but I don’t know what it is every time I e tried since the resurfacing I just can’t relax and it makes me feel anxious and uncomfortable 😭
Merry Christmas Anzee and Richie!!! 🎅 I kind of looks like Christmas just exploded in our lounge room!! 😳 Thinking of you both... not far away if you need over the Xmas / New year period.
C.
Yes we had 15 adults and 9 kids here today and it was chaos and I ended up having a few episodes of anxiety especially with a relative I am quite uncomfortable with here for a bit, he just triggers me with how selfish and arrogant he is. But I took my baby nephew for a walk and have had some wind down time so feeling a bit better now. We are travelling interstate tomorrow (about 8hrs of driving) to see the in laws so I have had a lot of anxiety building up about that because since I’ve started facing my trauma and suffering ptsd symptoms I have trouble travelling and being too far away from home for long periods so that’s going to be a test. Especially because my partners family are all separated and have conflict too so I’m not sure how well I will cope with it but it’s something I just have to do for my family.
hope you’ve had a relaxing day with your family xx
Hi Anzee, xmas sure can be a trying time. I'm glad to hear you had your nephew there and that he gave you the oppertunity to find some space when you needed it.
How did you trip to the in-laws go? Are you away for long? C.
We got here Saturday and leaving Wednesday or Thursday. The family lunch was pretty overwhelming and anxiety provoking yesterday but my sister in law was here with her brand new baby so that was a good distraction when I needed it ❤️
I just want to move past my childhood stuff and get on with life..
Hi Anzee,
I understand the feeling of wanting to be able to just move past things but you are doing a great job. This process will take time and it's something that can't be rushed. The fact that you have been able to recognise when you need space and your finding positive ways to get what you need is really encouraging and you should be really proud of yourself. None of this is easy but each time you identify when you need something and then actively get it (even if it is just some space to breath) it is progress 😉
Thanks catie, I’m so not good with patience and keep going into my fantasy thoughts that I can magically just make the pain and anxiety go away because I hate waiting but I’m slowly accepting it lol.
again I struggle to think that I can go 20 years with barely a thought of it to then have it completely take over my life and thoughts so I keep trying to push it away again but I’ve discovered every time I do that it just makes my reactions stronger. I’ll get there one day.
I hope your both doing well. I am now back at work and have been coping well. The break was exactly what I needed. My sister has joined me up to a 30 day yoga class online and my friend has encouraged me to try intermediate fasting to help with the weight loss. She has been doing it for a while now and looks fantastic so fingers crossed.
