I genuinely don’t believe the world will get better and I feel stuck.

[Chronicler-R]

Hello everyone, this is R. I just need somewhere to vent, and this seemed like the safest place to do so.

I’ve lost hope in the world getting better. With all the stuff like climate change, conflicts/genocides, discrimination becoming more normalised, I’m just sick and tired. And the fact that the only people with the power to actually make a difference couldn’t care less and are actively working to make things worse is the cherry on top.

I don’t think I’m gonna have a future. I don’t think any of my loved ones are gonna have a future.

I don’t wanna live if I can’t have a happy life, but I don’t want to die and leave my family to face this terrible world alone. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I don’t see a way out.

As much as I hate it here, I’m gonna try and survive. I intend to talk to a therapist as well. Things just suck right now.

[therising]

The warmest of welcomes to you R

You sound like such a deeply feeling sensitive person who's being so incredibly challenged and overwhelmed when it comes to how you feel or sense this world.

On one hand, sensing everything great about the world and some of the amazing people in it can be uplifting, inspiring, exciting and amazing. On the other hand, sensing everything wrong with this world and some of the people in it can become emotionally taxing/exhausting, aggravating, stressful, depressing and more. Being able to feel or sense from one end of the spectrum all the way through to the other can come with so many challenges, some of which include

• How do I manage being able to feel what's depressing or anxiety inducing?
• How do I learn and manage to tap into more high end or positive emotions in highly strategic ways, perhaps like never before?
• How can I master the 'volume' or amount of feeling or sensing, being able to dial it up or down?
• How can I manage to find people who can sense or feel in many of the same ways I do, so that I'm not alone in how I feel?

It can be a massive list, so I won't drag it out. Developing a wonderful list or a list full of things to wonder about can be a good start. When I say 'a wonderful list', this includes questions that can be deeply challenging when it comes to finding answers. I've found there are times in life where the best guide is what is needed in order to find the best answers. The best guide will not just lead us in the direction that serves us best but they can also shed light on certain challenges or parts of our path in life that we can feel or sense as being incredibly dark. I hope the therapist you're considering is that guide who leads the way for you while also helping shed much needed light in a world that can definitely feel dark at times.