Dear Rickyss, welcome to our friendly online community, we are so glad you decided to join us here. We know it can be hard to write the first post, so thank you for having the courage. We're so sorry to hear that you're tackling such difficult thoughts - it must be really challenging to constantly worry about being sick. We can see how much it is getting to you because you're thinking of ending it - we can imagine how difficult that must be.
We're super glad you reached out to us to express how you're feeling and we hope that expressing your thoughts on here has been at least somewhat helpful. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need.
We encourage you to speak to your doctor to try and organise some professional psychological support if you don't have any already. In the meantime, there are some free counselling services that operate 24/7 that you can contact for support if you like. For instance, in overwhelming moments, we encourage you to contact Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) for support.
Furthermore, if you would like some help finding mental health support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website:
www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
Again, we're so glad you reached out to our community. We hope that you will find some comfort here on the forums. Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it.
