Hi LJpd81,
I'm so glad you have identified that you need to speak to someone. Well done (I mean that honestly, the first step is always the hardest).
I have found it to be a fairly straightforward process and really all you need to do is book a GP appointment (I'd let reception know you want a longer health consult to do a mental health care plan - this will allow you to claim sessions via medicare). Then like Katyonthehamsterwheel said, you can tell them as little or as much as possible. But your GP is there to support you and provide you care - not judgement.
If you book a longer consult you can also discuss with your GP if they recommend someone, or you can search the APS website to find someone where you live and consider their speciality (eg. my GP and I found my current psychologist by looking for psychologists who specialise in eating disorders and anxiety).
I would recommend maybe looking online prior to the GP appointment and calling psychologists that you like the look of to see the wait times as, unfortunately, due to the mental health implications of COVID, some psychologists have a waitlist (not all, but it's good to just check so when your GP sends the referral to them, you can get in to see them ASAP). Your GP might also recommend medication, which is something for you to consider and talk through the pros and cons of.
Please know that there are so many are dealing with their mental health (and they come in all different shapes, sizes, walks of life) and nobody is going to think you are being dramatic or silly.
I also think you should consider telling your husband how you are feeling - it's important for you not to wear what you are going through on your own. And I'm sure if roles were reversed, you would want to know that he was in pain and be there for him. Please know that I understand completely how hard it is to tell someone you love, especially when you have internal narrative telling you not to burden them or that you "should" be stronger than this. But, if you can tell him, I'm sure he will be glad you have told him and be able to offer you the support you need. You might even find that if you sit him down, once you get started (which is always the hardest bit), the words might just start flowing out. And these kind of thoughts are always better out than in, as our brains unfortunately have a way of tricking us into a cycle of negativity when we keep them in.
Good luck and always here if you want to chat more,
G
