We're so grateful that you have reached out to our community tonight, we know that it is a really tough thing to do, but it is so important that you have. We're really sorry to hear what you're going through right now, but please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk about your thoughts and feelings, and our wonderful community is here to provide you with as much support, advice and conversation as you need. We are also currently getting in touch with you through email as we are worried about you.
Please know that there is always help available to you and you don't have to go through this on your own. Can we ask if you are you currently receiving mental health support? If not, we would urge that you do seek professional support to help you work through these thoughts that you're experiencing. If you are not sure of how to access mental health support, please contact the Beyond Blue Support Service anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
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Our Beyond Now suicide safety planning app can be a helpful resource to you. You can read about how it works and where to download it here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning . You could even call the Suicide Call-back Service (1300 659 467) or Lifeline (131114) and do it with one of their counsellors over the phone.
Keep checking back in when you feel up to it - our community is here for you.
I am so sorry to hear what has happened, and the distress and anguish that you must be feeling right now.
I just wanted to reach out to you and say that i am glad you have posted here, and i truly hope that somehow you can feel the support you need to get through this dark time in your life.
Someone in my family has had a similar thing happen, and i have seen the extreme anguish and deep pain that you must also be in.
I hope you have some legal support? If you have the support of your partner/wife/family and also character references from others in your life? this will be a huge help ... i understand that it would be very difficult to ask for these, as you probably want to keep this as private as possible.
My heart goes out to you and i want you to know that there is someone out there thinking of you and sending thoughts of hope and strength to you.
Please keep in mind what you are contemplating, and what you feel is the only solution, is a permanent decision, and this problem should only be temporary ... i dearly hope that you can gather up the supports you need around you.
Please come back any time to talk through your feelings and know that we are listening to you.
Deeply-felt caring thoughts to you during this excruciating time ...
I am sorry about what you’re going through..and I can feel your fear in your words...
I do not know how the court run at all...or how to suggest any thing that could be of assistance to you..I feel very sorry I can’t help you..
What I called in to say...is to please do not do what you’re thoughts are telling you to do....You say you have done no wrong...please hold your head high...and try hard to dismiss those thoughts...
You have been doing a wonderful service with the children you have/are fostering..surely that speaks for your integrity, kindness and the care you have inside you..
Please if you feel unsafe can you ring or contact those numbers our lovely Sophie has given you....and check out our safety plan...
Sorry I’m not much help for you..but I needed to say that thoughts are just thoughts and you don’t need nor have follow through with those thoughts..
My kind thoughts..
We are so glad that you are here talking this through with us. You are not alone and there is definitely HOPE!!! Never let go of that.
You and your family have been and are going through such a wretched, awful time. It must just be so stressful having to sell farm stuff to pay for some legal assistance.
It must also have been so very distressing losing your 2 friends at work. You know their minds must have been in the darkest places for them to go through with what they did.
As Grandy said, thoughts are just thoughts, and no matter how far down that track you think your thoughts are, you can always change those thoughts, choose a different path and make a different decision.
You and your family are going through such a terrible time, have the courts offered you any kind of socialwork assistance or counselling support of any kind?
I feel like it might be very helpful for you to get some kind of support from some professionals who can also link you up maybe with some assistance grom other services, who knows, even some legal help from somewhere that will be low cost ... or free?
Trying the numbers Sophie gave you might help to start with?
We are here listening to you Farmer and want to support you through this dark time.
Hold onto that hope!!! ... start to see a light, as tiny as it might be, at the end of this diffucilt and dark tunnel.
Thinking of you and your family ...
I am so sorry about your 2 close friends, and how very deep they must have been to end their lives..
This might be a hard question for you to answer....Can you remember how you felt when you heard of what they done?.
Devasted?...I hope so much that you wouldn’t cause this type of devastating pain for your family....They love you...so much...
Our Lovely Birdy has given you a great suggesting by reaching out for some help with your unhealthy thoughts...Please try hard to do that for yourself and your family....
Not sure if I can talk about your court case..in case some problems arise from me doing so...I am concerned for you and your thoughts....
We are here listening and hopefully can help you know that we all care about you..and want to support you through this hard time your facing..Please Farmer...believe in yourself that you can get through this...Holding your hand and sitting with you..
Please continue to talk, about whatever you feel up to talking about and when you feel up to it....it’s always good to let those thoughts out on paper or in here...
Listening for you dear Farmer, with my care and kind thoughts and wishes..