‘I am safe’ currently...
But I wish I had the courage to end it yesterday, today or tomorrow.
I wasn’t in a good place before all this bullshit began with Covid, but for at least 6 months now I’ve been constantly thinking about how not existing would be so much easier, peaceful... and how to go about that... (It is not the flu itself, but the insanity and response from Governments worldwide that has really destroyed my ability to care about living anymore), the new Australia many in power talk about, new rules, vaccination passports, tracking etc and possible forced vaccinations, or at least coerced, no jab=no job etc has killed off the last bit of what I used to believe what Australia was and my place in it.
I don’t even know why I’m writing this as I’ve lost all faith in humanity... the one thing really stopping me from going through with it is my parents, especially my mum, as I know it would really destroy her (she’s in her 70’s and in a weird way, it comforts me to think I may not have to wait long).
I’m tortured in my mind every single stinking day... real joy has gone, and I wish I could too.
