Broken system

[Scrabbling]

Why is the mental health system such a mess. After a very serious sucide attempt I woke up in hospital and then dumped straight onto a mental health unit with barely any interactions from staff just given sedation till they washed their hands of me. Sent to another unit with similar outcome. I had been diagnosed with MDD and PTSD. Then I had some chick prance through my room with 20 odd questions and then I was told I was BPD. I don't meet the criteria and was then told they are finished with me and by the way if you have a crisis just ring triage!!

I cracked it and stopped all my medications which I don't think were doing much and now I'm totally going down the rabbit hole. My GP is a joke ( hasn't once asked about my mental health or sucide attempt) I dont have a shrink so I suppose if they don't care why should I?

[Sophie_M]

Hi Scrabbling, 

Your post is now shared to the Forums - thank you for sharing your story here. We can hear you’re going through a difficult time and are so glad you are reaching out. 
 
If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important to take immediate steps to keep safe. Lifeline offer crisis support, available 24/7 on 13 11 14, or online: https://www.lifeline.org.au/  

If you’d prefer to reach out to us, we’re on 1300 22 4636, or you can use our webchat here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/  

If there’s ever an immediate risk of harm, the number to call is 000 (triple zero).  
 
We’d also recommend having a look at the Beyond Blue safety planning app. You can read about how it works and where to download it here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning  

You can even call Lifeline and complete it with one of their counsellors over the phone if you'd like.  

Thanks again for sharing. We hope you'll hear back from our community in response to your post sometime today and that there's some comfort in that for you.  

Kind regards,   

Sophie M

[therising]

Hi Scrabbling

I feel for you so much as you go down the rabbit hole that could be called 'Seriously questioning a depressing health care system'. I think the challenge with that particular rabbit hole is...the more you question, the more conscious you become. Then, the more conscious you become, the more triggered you feel. Before you know it, you're feeling all the highly triggering faults in the system. To be fair, I've found there are some brilliant people who work in the mental and physical healthcare system yet they can be hard to find at times.

It's so horrible how what was one of the worst times if not the worst time in your life was managed in such an impersonal way, in such a clinical way. While everyone's following protocol, you gotta seriously question who the heck came up with this protocol in the first place while believing it was okay. 🤔 Did they think 'Well, this is better than nothing'? You kinda get that impression.

Rabbit holes, there are plenty of them. I'm a 53yo gal who loves exploring rabbit holes. Having managed challenges that come with depression for 30 something years, it's only in the last handful of years that I've taken such exploration seriously. While I'll explore just about anything in the way of how we tick mentally, physically and soulfully, some of what I've discovered I'd class as exciting and inspiring. Based on what I've found, I'd say the tide is just beginning to turn in the overall healthcare system. From treating PTSD with MDMA clinical treatment, to exploring whether natural traits (that are out of balance, misunderstood or misdiagnosed) are being put into the DSM-V, to breakthroughs in quantum physics that define how we work on an energetic level (on a level we can physically feel), there are just so many rabbit holes. Such rabbit holes tend to shift my focus away from a lot of the highly questionable things that just don't seem to work all that well.

I think tolerating what doesn't work eventually becomes intolerable. It's the nature of intolerable things. The question becomes 'Where do I go from here, while I move away from what's intolerable?'. Personally, I don't do 'limbo' or 'the verge' well, being stuck between what I've moved away from and what I need to head towards (that will actually work). The verge can feel like a torturous place the longer we stay there and it can trigger depression at times, yet the verge still remains the place that comes before change.