Words - more powerful than you realise

CAG · ‎13-06-2014

Its 4am, another cant sleep moment so I get up and try to do something productive .. so here I am.

Friday the 13th... must remember to hug my black cat, stand under a ladder, break a mirror and all that stuff ..

Anyway on to productive...

I am instinctively altruistic. It is not a bad thing at all, however I seemed to have missed the part in the operating guide where it said to put myself first, not last. I have fixed that now as in a large part the part I missed put me where I am now.

I like to inspire others as part of that helping quality I have and if what I share does help someone then that would be awesome.

Words - can hurt,help and inspire - its how you interpret them.

I love quotes. I have them stuck up everywhere so I see them all the time and they help me a great deal to keep positive and motivated.

Some examples

Depression - Do Everything Positively Reach Extend Stay Strong Ignore Others Negativity

Fear - Forget Everything and Run or Face Everything and Rise

Face your problems, don't Facebook them

Focus - Fear Often Causes Unnecessary Sadness

What other people think of you is REALLY none of your business

On the back of my front door is

It is just a big piece of wood. Stop worrying about what might go wrong. Take a deep breath, open me because on the other side you could find something to go right

The first step to getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are

Winners are not people who never fail but people that never quit

Music is expression with powerful words. It can and will change your mood. Some extracts of lyrics

Delta Goodrem - Believe Again

Have you ever stared into the rain

Thought the clouds would never disappear

Have you ever screamed out into the dark

Thinking no one else could hear

Have you ever spun out of control

Like you never saw the road ahead

Have you ever just kept looking back

Ever closer to the edge

I believe the impossible is possible to overcome

D:Ream - Things can only get better

I sometimes lose myself in me

I lose track of time

And I can't see the woods for the trees

You set 'em alight, burning the bridges as you go

I'm too weak to fight you

I got my personal health to deal with

Things can only get better

Can only get better

Sleepy again now, I hope this might help, if it does you don't need to tell me, that is not my intent. I will just keep on fighting and make it happen.. There will be an answer.. let it be

Keep going, don't stop. don't quit. Believe in you.

geoff · ‎13-06-2014

dear Cag, well that's a strong attitude towards life.

Can I ask you how long it has taken you to be this way, as I'm sure that you have been to hell and back. Geoff.

BeeGee · ‎13-06-2014

Wow, I almost don't know what to say in response to that relentless torrent of positivity. To be frank I struggle to comprehend it.

I don't mean this as any disrespect to you at all - on the contrary, I am reflecting on where I am at - is this a genuine expression of who you are, where you are at, or is this a mindset you have chosen to adopt as your coping strategy with your illness? I don't think I could really get on board with this approach, it would feel to me like trying to convince myself that I really DO like brussels sprouts as I try to shovel another one into my mouth without gagging.

I do relate to what you're saying about putting others first to your own detriment though, and I think for me that's been symptomatic of my depression. I've neglected self-care in order to meet the expectations of everyone else and that has come with a price I didn't even realise I was paying at the time. I'm only at the start of my recovery journey so I'm still not even sure what it looks like yet to be different to that - only that it's important and I need to figure it out.

Anyway, if your thing is real - good for you, I'll cheer you from the sidelines, but I'm not sure I can join the game!

JessF · ‎13-06-2014

I think it is very hard for things to improve in your life if you don't commit to making changes or at least believe that change is possible. I love the front door quote, I think I might put that one up at home!

My mother used to have a fridge magnet that said 'never regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many.'

CAG · ‎14-06-2014

Positive thinking will help you progress, negativity will hold you back.

Cognitive Based Therapy (CBT) helps you identify and manage what make you feel bad.

Everything I write will be absolutely honest. Truth has only one not so good point in that it is open to interpretation.

I believe I can do what I have to do. It is not a coping strategy it is a curing strategy.

Just like Brussels sprouts, I wont reject anything until I have tried it.

If you don't like it. do whatever you can to change it. Why? Because the first step to getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.

There are lots of people and resources to help you but the way out of depression is something you have to do, by yourself, as nobody can do it for you.

Change is incredibly hard, when you believe it is possible, want it so badly and INITIATE it.. you have a greater opportunity to succeed with a CAN do it positive approach.

It will take time and you find what works for you. Sharing my experiences is just what I like to do.

The only expectations that matter and to be managed are your own. The only person you have the right to judge is yourself.

What other people may think of you is REALLY none of your business. You matter more than anyone or anything else. Don't forget that.

CAG · ‎14-06-2014

Hi Geoff

I have had clinical severe depression for about 18 months, coupled and compounded by other medical issues such as diabetes for 20 years. now a debilitating painful issue likely caused by antibiotic overload as well. Anti depressants also did more bad than good in relation to this issue. I take nothing now other than insulin.

I have many demons to fight off all at the same time.

I do not know what the "easy way out" is. I have always done it by myself. If I did not know about something I researched it and found out everything I could about it.

When I understand it, my psychology can get on board with the solutions. When I see a plan taking me forward it is really helpful. Standing still being sad just makes it worse.

I have been to hell and back many many times. Hospitalised 10 times in 2013 and 2 times so far in 2014. None of these related to depression, it just exacerbated it.

I am just going to keep going, I never quit. When I am way way down in the dark hole I make myself think positively so I can generate enough momentum to bounce myself out,

When nothing is going right, or left and you can't go further down..the logical place to go is UP.

I just do my best to have more good days than those other ones.

CAG · ‎14-06-2014

Put up one, then another when you like.

Mothers know a lot more about things than we ever give them credit for. 🙂

geoff · ‎14-06-2014

dear BeeGee, what you have heard from any of us is genuine, so it's not, and I take my comments for example, is that I have been through hell so many times in my life, and suffered horrendously so I know and understand completely what you and who ever else I reply to are struggling with their depression.

I am not here for fun, although that's being a bit harsh, to fill people's minds up with pretend ideas, so what I say is a sincere reply, and I think I can rely on what others have to say.

If what I comment on is rubbish then I would have more time to myself by not being on this site, but there is a need and a place where people suffering from deep depression want to talk to other people who have encountered similar problems, so what this means is that BB is a vital site and maybe no different to Lifeline, the only difference is that here it may take awhile before the replies are checked by the Moderators and then posted, so that's where Lifeline comes into it.

Everybody who replies has a different approach when they talk to someone else, or on most occasions they are very similar.

I have been on this site for 8-9 years where I have seen good responders come and go, just as people suffering with depression, where some can't get an answer to their concerns or alternatively they have eventually found the light and wish not to continue, that's their choice.

We have seen many people who are suicidal but with our support their life has turned around, and boy this has been a great effort by all of us who have been able to change this person, so this is our main concern to help anybody who is asking us for help, and we will keep doing this as long as those who want to stay on this site are available.

So I truly hope that you stay with us as long as you want. Geoff.