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vip
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member
Hi everyone I was missing from these forums for a while totally got carried away with facebook which I closed and will never reopen again as I was writing maybe things I shouldn't have that's ok I made a big mistake I have learnt from it. I have been off my medication for 6 months due to some bad side effects I was having like drops to the floor, memory loss so under strict supervision from my psych and gp im having a go being off all this. How am I doing well I have a borderline personality disorder so many many different personalities coming out wow and I have anxiety and depression but I am go well I would say nearly 80% well ill get there . I train vigourously at my local gym 5 days a week sometimes 6 I volunteer im helping my hubby at the moment with his business all these things just temp until I get get in that work force and maybe work in fashion my 2nd passion in life. I would say I have had all this from age 7 and I turn 40 soon so yes a long battle but im getting stonger im learning to battle my demons and manage all this so I want to give all the rest of  you beautiful people on this forum that there is hope and you can overcome all this . Yes its a long long journey and honestly one that will probably last a lifetime but that's what makes us all unique special people. We all have a gift that when we overcome this cruel disease we are able to help others young and old. So that's my spill would love to hear from others who are recovering and what they have done to recover just for some inspiration that's all. take care to you all xx
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geoff
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

dear Sen, I see that you have made an enormous effort by posting 487 times, and sorry forgive me but my memory won't expand that far back, but I'm sure that I will quickly catch up with your previous posts.

There are many wonderful people on this site who are still haunted by their demons, but they want to reply to others who are also in need of assistance, and the generosity and care would have to be outstanding.

I am one of the lucky ones and have overcome my depression, but this isn't to say that I can have a relapse, which I have, but the important part to this is that I knew I would get better, in contrast to someone who has their head just popping out of the ground, and then they fall back into depression, then their thought would be 'here we go again', so all their negative thoughts come back, which puts back to square one.

Whereas your attitude 'I'm getting stronger I'm learning to battle my demons and manage all of this', so what this does mean that you are well and truly coming out of your depression, and perhaps I am not giving you enough credit, but really I am, because it takes a great deal of strength to be able to do this, and can't you feel the relief and pleasure of being able to function in a normal way.

Now I feel so sorry for the rest of our wonderful people who just can't shake off their depression, and by saying this it doesn't take into account those who have been sexually abused at a young age, or those who have lost a family friend/sibling, which then incorporates another type of depression and has to be treated in another way.

I am curious as to how they are treating you for 'borderline personality disorder so many many different personalities', especially as you are getting older, and here I am saying this as I'm 59, so look who's talking.

Great to have you back. L Geoff. x

vip
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member
Geoff I have only posted this once what do you mean 487 times?????   cmon who is playing these jokes on me ?????  beyond blue haaaaaaa. Yes turned my name back to front like it was originally remember glad you remembered me . Treatment Geoff well there really isn't any . I can go back to my psych any time I want too but think after all these years ive pretty much said everything that's bothered me past future ect ect . I have been told keep really busy lose weight exercise go into the sunshine have only a few friends who love and support you honestly and in a trustworthy way which I do. Find a little job that is not stressful no working with children so will have to be either in a clothing store. This I did last year and pop into a friends store regularly to help out . And too mediatate lots of music playing at home car gym ect ect. no alcohol which is fine I don't drink anyway . going out must be civil places like no nightclubs which I don't like anyway. And getting involved in sports love love love soccer footy so watch my son play . Ignore negative comments from people around me . accept only some people will love my personality not all. Be more compassionate and tolerant of my husband who has put up with a lot so giving him the freedon to grow and stop telling him what to do. chill out and relax and be aware before I shoot my mouth off who I upset ect ect. im aware of all my behavious and have been told to lay low as well at time not to be in the spotlight or centre of attention. when I start carrying on laughing moving around going over board its a bit shameful as I am a mother of a little boy so I want to be a mature mummy not act like an idiot. im 40 soon so time to grow up and act like a mature woman not a little girl. Also Geoff there is soooo many cousins ect in my family with mental illness so I was one of the unfortunate ones to get it too. but that's ok im not dying im not in a wheel chair I know my limits my strengths my weaknesses ill just take 1 day and a time that's all I can do and not worry so much ahead I have the tools for this and the knowledge to make everyone proud around me and myself too. Also Geoff I have the best parents and a 2 gorgeous brothers and 1 especially Daniel whoi would do anything for me we are closer in age and gorgeous nieces and nephews who support me must always mention them  too.  Lovely chatting with you again Geoff take care .

Jo3
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi Sen

I am so glad that you are back, I really missed having you on here as my friend.

Just one thing though, either you never mentioned it or my memory is going or gone - i don't remember you saying you have BPD.  We have so much more in common than what I thought!!!  How do you cope with having BPD and what treatment have you done.

Do you know what Sen - I am soooo proud of you - you have achieved so much in the past year.  Fantastic work going to the gym so often.

 Take care my friend

Jo xx

Neil_1
Community Member

Dear Nes (or Sen);  you had us fooled nicely until you owned up;  😉  😉

Wowee, I LOVE your attitude and your outlook - it's so positive and uplifting.  I can feel it through your words.  It's like a massive corner that you've turned and are now on a magnificent 5-lane highway with picturesque views all around you.

Everything you wrote has really positive overtones for pretty much every aspect of your life.

I'm so so pleased for you.

But this is your positive post - and I can't contribute to it in that way.

I come here everyday to reach out and help others as much as I can.

I'm hurting inside - not only shockingly mentally, but really bad physically now as well.  So there's no inspiration coming from this little black duck - or should I say, orangey/reddy New Hampshire cross - which is the beautiful Nuggzy in the my pic.

ps:  speaking of pics, Jo, I like your new one.  And is that a view of somewhere local for you?

Again, great to have you back Nes - you'll be a remarkable breathe of fresh air on here (not that there's any stale stuff floating around), but you know what I mean - I hope.

Neil

 

vip
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member
Thankyou Neil, Jo Geoff . Look 4 yrs ago I was tested for many mental illnesses those being bipolar skitsophrenia hope that's spelt ok none of these its a mild borderline personality trait I have . Believe me the psychs gps clinics have worked on this hard and that's all they can come up with . No never mentioned it in my previous posts because had more deeper issues there to chat about . You know its come to the point where I have been told I have done soooo much therapy its time to stop use my tools my experience everything I have been shown through all my group and single therapies . Accept this is who I am I cant change it but I can control and manage it considering what I have been through . Its a challenge yes but im totally up for it I have a beautiful son who needs me and who im sticking around for so I have to be strong and let him see that he has a  mother who no matter what is thrown at her can conquer and get through anything. Nobody no negativity will ever bring me down again I am a good person who has lots to offer . Neil that's fine ive read your posts you are a great friend to jo everyone here on this forum and jo and Geoff same to you its a blessing to know all of you and chat together. xx

vip
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member
Geoff sorry I get it now it says on the side of these posts how many times I wrote haaaa silly me never noticed that before sorry beyond blue my error not yours. Wow lots of posts from rest of you guys well done