Can you relate? You carry out your daily life, tasks, work, chores, responsibility. Behind it all is this need to withdraw. It isn’t “giving up” as such, its escape from what is alien to us…modern life and people without empathy. Some might rightfully say its “burnout” well if it is that then it’s a pretty permanent form of it.
Forget the trams the train and busses
True life isn’t any of those
Sit in the corner of your land
To let a spider dance upon your nose…
Then there is the “twentieth century disease” where some are paranoid about anything modern from concrete to aircraft. A total allergy condition where a few cant live in the modern world. There is scepticism about that but either way some of us – just don’t fit into life as we know it.
The crowd of “norms” begin to chatter
Ignore him, “there’s something the matter”
If I want to talk and be one of them
My aching head… on a silver platter….
These people that “fit” do so with ease
They can do the task with smiles of cheese
Though judge the odd in psycholand
When all we want is to…please…
And so the walls go up and the masks come out. We fit in with the others or so they think. As we try to stay on the rim of a crowd it doesn’t ultimately work. We are on our own. As we age it becomes more and more obvious that we were never going to fit in, be part of the crowd, be accepted or even encouraged to be one of “them”. So what is the answer?
Let them go. Allow them to be in their own company and you learn to enjoy your own. Be comforted that you, the one with a mental illness is indeed a wonder in that you are just as important to the world. Value that. Involve yourself with things that enhance such importance like saving injured animals or making bird boxes so they can nest or sorting out clothes as a volunteer. Value that…value you however irrelevant it seems.
It not matter what they say
this black and white world is grey
there be no space in their life for imperfection
- they know no other way...
Never give up be your motto
take heart though there be a chance
for many a confused you never see
behind their mask -a conflict dance
And therein lies your direction, if you can, to reach out to all and select those that need you or relate to you or even like you. If not then caring for animals could be for you. That way you can slot into a place where you are needed and accepted.
And life is worthwhile. There is no better feeling of being needed and loved...and to care...
TonyWK
