Gertie-
I had to tell you that I absolutely understand what you mean about not feeling like you have anything to be depressed about. When I was diagnosed I berated myself for not "pulling through" a traumatic experience as well as some of my peers did. It took me awhile and a few counsellor visits that it wasn't my 'fault' I couldn't deal as well, that I have an illness. I was doing really well until I hit new stresses and back to the doctor I headed for a new prescription because I wasn't coping under the old one anymore. Before the new script I had highs and lows all over the place, so maybe another GP visit isn't a bad idea?
I definitely believe that it is normal from time to time be able to cope more, or less!, effectively with every day stresses.
The hardest thing that I learnt in counselling was to not try and avoid the black days. The more I tried to keep it at bay, the harder it hit when I finally couldn't control it anymore. I have to admit that I am hurting, and let those days come. I don't always get it right.
Those weeks of just wanting to stay in bed and burrow do get further apart and weeks of hurt can turn into a few days. It does get better.
They still hit me from time to time, and for me sometimes I go for a drive, go for a walk, draw or just write down on a piece of paper anything and everything that comes into my head no matter how dark.
My low days don't always come with a trigger so it can be the most confusing and frustrating thing. If you have a good support network around you, the best thing can be to share with them everything you're feeling. They don't feel the same emotions as you when you share your thoughts with them so you aren't burdening anyone with what you're feeling- as cliche as it is let it out, and then let it go. (God only knows that isn't easy but I can't think of how else to put it!)
PS I agree with MrsCam too, the more I eat healthier and do light exercise the better days I have.
