Hi Agrowingman,
Hello and welcome to the forums. Firstly, I would really like to commend you, it takes a lot of bravery and courage to reach out and share this to everyone.
It can be very tempting to drink when you are feeling depressed or unhappy, but alcohol is never a solution, it only makes things worse and spoils relationships. It may temporarily suppress your feelings of sadness or pain, but it won't last.
As you rightly said, you may be covering some deep-down pain by drinking. It will only temporarily numb your emotional pain but will not heal it. It would be good if you could identify the root cause of your pain or sadness and find a permanent solution.
If I may ask, is there any triggers/patterns that make the urge for you to have a drink?
Have you consulted with your GP/mental health professional or addiction specialist, who can provide you proper guidance and recommendations for possible treatment options?
Also, you can reach out to support groups as below (if you haven't already):
Alcoholics Anonymous - Alcoholics Anonymous (aa.org.au)
https://aa.org.au/
Alcohol and drugs | ReachOut Australia
https://au.reachout.com/challenges-and-coping/alcohol-and-drugs
Please reach out to professionals as soon as possible as they can give you proper treatment.
I really want you to get better and wish you a speedy recovery from the bottom of my heart. I am here to listen if you want any help...
Take care
Happylife
