I want to learn from the past and move forward!

[Doolhof]

Hi Everyone,

We have returned from our holiday. I can sit here and think about the things that did not go so well or I can remember the good and enjoyable parts and expand on them.

Now I am home, I have the opportunity to create new situations, experiences, circumstances and actions.

I don't need to return to the old way of doing life that did not work so well for me all the time. I have an opportunity to create a new and different existence and way of thinking!

I need to believe I can do this! I need to also realise life with depression and anxiety is part of my reality, I need to find and put in place actions and behaviours that will help me accept all of my life, the good, the bad and the not so pleasant.

Cheers to you all from Dools

[Doolhof]

Dear Grandy,

Thank you for your kind words, your loving care and thoughtfulness. It does mean so much to me. I am thinking I am going to print your message out and put it in my diary.

I know there are things I can do to help myself, sometimes it is just so hard to put them into action! Some days it can take the smallest little thing to send you backwards.

I have tried today! It was not so hot this morning so I watered some of the garden and tried to look at the plants that are still alive and not concentrate on the dead ones. I appreciated the clouds and the birds.

Reading has helped and I finally managed to call the hairdresser this morning after having her business card on the bench for over a month! She had a cancellation and was able to fit me in just a while ago.

Those negative thoughts are sneaky little blighters! I think after last year they scare me a little Grandy! They took me to a very dark place. Guess if I am aware of that I can work on not returning there!

Grandy thanks again! You are a real treasure. How are you travelling these days yourself dear lady?

Cheers from Dools

[Ggrand]

Hello Mrs Dools,

Im not traveling the best right now, I’m trying to learn from my past which is so very hard to do...we know what to do but how hard is it to do the things that lift us up and helps us, but I’m trying to...

Im pleased to hear that you watered your garden and looked at the plants that are alive...We have water restrictions here and watering the gardens is not allowed, but some do it still...My poor lemon and orange tree are not going to make it...Ive been saving the water from my washing and pouring it on them...If they do survive I’ll have bubbles inside my oranges and lemons..😂..

Mrs Dools, I love the clouds, the way they creep across the sky changing shape, when I was little I used to lay on my back and draw the clouds, now I sit in my veranda and just watch them as they do their magic...I have a massive gun tree across from me and it’s alive with birds, I feed and water them daily and have the pleasure of watching them eat and have drinks and washes in the bird bath...The little sparrows get into the dirt and have a dirt birth...it’s cute to watch...

I hope you just love your hair after a visit to the salon..I haven’t been to one in years, my hair is quite long and so curly...I hated it growing up but now I kind of appreciate it...

They are sneaky little blighters arnt they..Can get us before we know it...Please Mrs Dools, keep reaching out here whenever you need to...I only hope that they never take you back there...If you come here as soon as you feel them coming to talk to you...like you did today, talking here can help a lot, we all have connected to each other and are able to help each other, and that’s gold dear Mrs Dools...like you special lady...you also are a treasure you have helped me and so many others by your inspiration and humour...time and time again...

Please dear Mrs Dools, be very gentle and kind to you...treat yourself with love and compassion like you do to me and others here...

Sending my love and hugs dear friend..

Grandy..

[Doolhof]

Dear Grandy,

Thanks again. I don't know why it becomes so hard to help ourselves when we need to. Like you, I have strategies I can put in place. It is as though all ability to help myself is taken from me somehow.

I know I can use the support phone services, my sister has told me I can call her anytime, even if she is at work, she will get back to me. Even my new employment consultant lady has said I can call her. But I don't. It is like I can't even pick up the phone!

Thanks for reminding me of the little things we have in life to be thankful for. Also for your kind words and a reminder that people are here for me on the forum.

I am sorry to read that you are struggling too Grandy. I believe I have felt worse in this long hot summer. I dislike the heat and find it hard to breathe outside when it is hot. It exhausts me. Being shut inside with all the curtains pulled is depressing. I do try to get out early before it is hot.

Your comment about the oranges and lemons having bubbles in them made me laugh Grandy! I too save water for my plants. The kitchen water goes in my pot plants. I have tubs I use to wash the dishes in. I'm not sure why we don't have water restrictions here.

Today I am going to the home for the elderly. I am going to see if I can help at the craft group as I know I will enjoy that and will feel good if I can help the people participate as well or at least chat with them. Assisting in the dementia area is a bit more of a challenge.

It breaks my heart when I go in there Grandy to see all those precious people with vacant minds. I am going to make enquiries about what activities I could do in there to help bring some happiness and joy to those people.

From the bottom of my heart I thank you Grandy. Time for some tears and then some exercises, a shower and get ready for the day.

Cheers from Mrs. Dools