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[SourceShield]

Greetings!

This post is about LIMITING-BELIEFS, or as me and my brother Matt now call them, Old Thought Thoughts - OTT.

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This post will most likely not appeal to many people, because I am writing about our beliefs that we have about life and ourselves, that we all have had for much of our life.

Our beliefs are personal, and yet oddly the 'same' as well.

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There is a school of thought that teaches us that when we identify the OTT i.e. I am unlovable.

Relate to the OTT, rather than from it.

We can then release the attachment to the OTT, as well as the aversion to the OTT.

For example -

A child is told that they are no good, useless and worthless, every other day.

-sadly, this is a story often told, by many.

As this child grows a set of OTT have been programmed into the mind-body of the now grown adult-child.

I am no good.

I am useless.

I am worthless.

etc etc etc

The adult-child now has an attachment to the OTT.

But also you would see an aversion to those OTT as well.

I am no good <- the attachment.

And, I hate that I am no good <- the aversion. The judgement for having the OTT in the first place, keeps us attached to the OTT.

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Not all beliefs are limiting.

All beliefs are fluid.

They are mutable - liable to change, as all things in existence are!

But...

How do we release the OTT?

Thats what we're most interested in!.

I am going to share a few things of how I am learning to release all of the OTT that once ruled my life, and would love to read yours as well!.

1) Refer to the OTT being in the past. If we keep on affirming the OTT in the present moment, it stays in the present moment. By writing and talking about the OTT being in the past, youre correcting the memory. REWIRE!

2) I AUGMENT positive memories. Whatever they are, whenever they happened. This is why I actively look for things to be thankful and grateful for. Appreciation, heals! And thats now science...if youre interested in the research about this, let me know!

3) I have learned to ask for help, and to RECEIVE it graciously, whenever it comes to me. And, it always does.

4) I SMILE and LAUGH more. Theres research for this too!

5) I have changed my eating habits. I EAT WELL now. I am now on the Guts and Psychology Syndrome foodplan GAPS. I used to be obese. No more.

6) I EXPRESS in healthy ways - dance, music, write..

7) I take time out to LOVE - my family, friends, my dog bundy, nature..

REMEMBERING to LOVE is a biggie!.

And, whatta 'bout you?...

[1113]

Good morning OTT family,

I just awoke from a very peaceful dream.

Probably one of my best sleeps in a long time.

I see love, tenderness and compassion all around.

I will read and catch​ up.

But for now

Love is here.

Peace

Matthew

[Shred1106]

Morning all

I had a rough day yesterday - this changing over to the NBN is not working very well and I lost the plot for a while.BUT, I sorted what I could at the time and avoided a full blown panic attack. Watch this space for the NBN update - I fear it will be New Year before all is sorted.Gees I hate taking these meds but they help I guess.

This morning I am wrapping gifts that will go in my luggage as we are away at Christmas and New Year. Hiding them is not so easy as family has a tendancy to go through my stuff when they visit.

My OTT -I am not worthy or strong

My NPT - Do what I can

[Guest_9809]

Hi Matthew,

Lovely to read that you finally had a decent sleep - and were awoken from a peaceful dream.

Gosh doesnt it make a huge difference to our overall sense of wellbeing? I'm really happy for you and one day I'll get there too, I hope.

Matt - may the great start to your day, continue throughout the day, week, year, lifetime. xx

Kaitoa, I will keep a look out for that time-lag post of yours to me. (-:

Taurus xx

[1113]

Thank you Taurus

May your confidence keep growing with love and compassion.

Your sentiments I return to you.

Peace

Matthew

[Kazzl]

Morning all, I hope everyone has a good day today and there is ice cream awaiting you at the end of it.

Kaitoa I'm going to ponder your words on apathy as I potter in the garden today. I often 'disconnect', I wonder if that's the same thing. I mentally remove myself from the place I'm in or people I'm with. Sometimes it's like I'm watching a movie all around me, but I'm not part of it, I'm invisible and I don't care. It's a self-preservation thing I think, but maybe it's apathy or just a strange bipolar thing.

Does that make any sense?

Anyways, best wishes to everyone ... off to play in the dirt.

Kaz

[1113]

Morning kazza,

Im trying to stay away from the ice cream. LAM

I have some weight to lose.

I feel "disconnected" a far bit. Just zone out.

Yesterday I was getting ready to go out to take my boy to piano lessons. I felt anxiety. The anxiety of being out of my comfort zone before I even go. The anxiety usually builds to a point where I disconnect.

I just went for a light jog. About 2k. Just enough to use up that energy. Then I had a shower, relaxed for 20mins and it just passed.

I was happy, laughing and in a very playful mood.

I'm staying connected with some mildful techniques.

I really like nature. This is a great way to be connected to your surroundings.

I wish you a good day mate.

Happy gardening.

Got get those weeds.

Peace

Matthew

[Shred1106]

Hi Kaz

I too "disconnect" and seem to spend time just being there - as my therapist and I call it, on the outside looking in.I believe it is self preservation...particularly in stressful times.

Enjoy the gardening

[Kazzl]

Hiya Matthew, thank you my dear! I should try mindful techniques to stay connected - I'm glad they work for you. Must say though, sometimes it's nice to disconnect!

I have weight to lose too. Since I started on lithium early in the year I've just piled it on. It's notorious for that. Apparently there is another drug I could take to counteract that but it can lead to increased cognitive deficit, especially difficulty concentrating and poor memory. I have enough of that going on as it is.

I will get serious about trying to lose weight, and stop smoking (aarrrrgghhh, my nemesis) again soon. But there's sooooo much ice cream in the world, what can you do? And I managed to stay off the cigs for a month, but started eating everything I could lay hands on. Except the dog food, I drew the line at that.

You're right about nature. I love getting into the dirt. And this time I really am off to do so. Not many weeds left now, I'm winning the war!

Have a great day mate, see you later.

Kaz

xx

[SourceShield]

Morning Folks!-

Shred - You're doing incredibly well. Keep it up.

- NPT - "I can do this. I AM doing my best."

Taurus - It's good to see you here again this morning!. Your beautiful presence is always welcome. Have a lovely day, lovely one!.

Matt - Stay mindful. I sense a huge energy shift in you, which is great...just remember to stay at ease with the genuine Love that you feel.

Remember to keep on offering yourself as much Love as you can. Harmonious-balance is going to become a lot more important to you.

Otherwise these times, could also lead to disappointment, when you reach an emotional plateau. Which is all part of it as well.

We stay cognisant, so that we don't have 'manic' moments of, "I love everyone and everything", to, "Why is the world so horrible??? etc etc etc ".

Include it ALL.

The good times, the bad times, the ugly times, and the beautiful times.

It's ALL part of who you are.

Be present, and your life, will keep on thanking you for it!. Well done.

Kaz - It's the "I DON'T CARE PART" as you mention, that's the apathy OTT.

Anytime we say things like, "I don't care", or "whatever", in a disconnected way as you mention, that's apathy.

The part that we are blocking off from ourselves from accessing is the LOVE for oneself, in that moment.

It is a 'self preservation' thing as you have wisely pointed out, but one that has been maladapted.

In the long term scheme of things, thinking that way, just creates a greater sense of dissociation and disconnect, and the OTT love that!.

For many of us, with all that we have going on, it's totally natural and understandable, but it's an OTT all the same.

And, we can release the attachment to the OTT, that's what matters.

Because even though others may not see you, it's important that you begin to see yourself.

You are not invisible, though I think that could be a cool powers sometimes, but this is not what you're really talking about, when you say, "I'm invisible, I don't care", that's just an Apathy OTT, feeding off of your disconnection from life, and love, in that moment.

This doesn't mean that we have to go and be social butterflies and force ourselves to fit in.

That just wouldn't work for me either.

It's more about reverse-engineering the OTT.

- NPT - "I care about me. I am seen by the ones I love. I accept myself"

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I hope everyone has a splendiferous day, but if not, I'm here for you.

I'm feeling so much better today!.

Thanks for caring friends!

Kaitoa.

[SourceShield]

...on another note...

As mentioned last night, when I got home, after work, I got some bad news.

For the last week, I've been incredibly 'buzzed' about going to Woodford Festival.

I love the festival life.

I was going to be cooking as one of the SuperFood Chefs - Which is right up my proverbial alley!.

But, last night, when I got home from work...I had an email!.

The person that they regularly have with them, has decided to now to go to Woodford, so I was no longer needed.

Instantly, I heard "rejection"-OTT, and, "I-Don't-Deserve-Any-Good"-OTT...they all went off in my mind.

But, thankfully, I didn't lose the plot!.

Like I had in the past.

I recognised the OTT, and then challenged the attachment to the OTT.

Related to them, rather than from them.

Remembered to remember the NPT, that are in my mind as well.

Responded positively by activating the NPT, with positive activity.

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1) Recognise&Challenge OTT.

2) Relate To OTT.

3) Remember NPT.

4) Respond positively to NPT to activate.

***If you need assistance with The OTT, please remember this technique***

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So, this morning, I woke feeling good.

As mentioned last night, after receiving the bad news, I was already being proactive, and started looking around for other possible opportunities to work at Woodford.

I also wrote the people that I was going to work for, a letter.

Simply expressing my disappointment.

People with Autism can be kinda notorious for writing letters, like letters to the editor or to the boss.

But this morning, I had surrendered all emotional heaviness about not going, and all is well.

So then...

I just got a call from the boss, of the SuperFood Kitchen.

He apologised.

Told me that he loves my positive attitude.

That they'd love to still have me come and work with them!.

I'm still going to Woodford!.

That just made my day, so much more awesomererer!.

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I just wanna say that I couldn't have done this without the support from so many of you here on BB.

For real.

Thank you!.

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Releasing the attachment to The OTT, has been a long time coming for me.

But life unfolds just as it must.

There can be no other way, otherwise, it would be that way!

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NPT

- "I feel incredibly thankful, appreciative and grateful right now."

- "I feel love flowing to me, through me, and from me."

- "I now love, accept, approve of, and appreciate my whole-self, exactly as I am."

...and now we must activate with positive activity...

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Peace

Kaitoa