I am certain that everyone has been given or given this advice themselves. I myself, find that sometimes I have to take things minute by minute. But, waking up this morning, I asked myself what the implications are of this particular mentality/concept?
I am a dreamer, a thinker (some say over-thinker), a researcher and a risk-taker. These characteristics present in such a way that I dream big first, I plan pathways to get there (owing for contingencies), and if it involves immersing myself in a world I do not know, I will do it, and when I'm there, I'll adapt, I'll analyze myself and my plans and I will expect to succeed. Failure is okay also, it's life lesson, so I'm okay as long as I have tried to do what I wanted to do. This, is all in an ideal world. In actuality, I do all of this around and through my depression and anxiety. And if I do succeed, it felt like such a struggle to get there that I am relieved that I'm on the other side rather than enjoying my accomplishments. And if I fail...well...
So, having been given this advice, and trying to implement it, I wonder if dreaming big and taking risks is pragmatic, because at the face of it, it seems to close me off. Hope for a day. Repeat the next. If you have a bad day, tomorrow might be better, brush it off. But, if you do dream big, one day of self indulgence of inactivity, which we all know can amount to 7 days or 10 days etc...counts against what I'm working for. 10 days of the lack of hope is enough to dissuade anyone of the feasibility of such dreams. Or, on the other side, what if I have a string of good days and still take it one day at a time? And I cannot enjoy it because I'm only focusing on the next day, and will only realize what has happened after the fact and possibly when I compare it to the bad days that have come up again.
Please note, I haven't given up on my dreams but it seems like on one hand it isn't enough to get me out of a depressive state, there just isn't enough hope here or faith in myself and capabilities, and on the other hand this method is counterproductive to planning because days can go by as fast as blinking. Also, I'm all for dreams, I don't think anyone should give up on theirs, that's not what I'm trying to say.
Is my thinking wrong? Did I explain myself well?
Joelle
