people here are very warm, accepting and welcoming - far more so than many of my own friends and family - thank you so much, it has helped more than you will realise and has helped lead me to...
and finally, my self-attitude is warm and forgiving which is a huge change from the self hatred I have been pushing onto myself so much recently.
Had catnap, & feeling better now. There is an undercurrent of sadness about it being Mothers' Day, as it is difficult having lost the relationship, which may, or may not have been ... I can't sum that up in a single phrase, let alone one word. I'm okay, though. More sad for others.
