Best word to describe today
the sunlight is warm on my back;
people here are very warm, accepting and welcoming - far more so than many of my own friends and family - thank you so much, it has helped more than you will realise and has helped lead me to...
and finally, my self-attitude is warm and forgiving which is a huge change from the self hatred I have been pushing onto myself so much recently.
I struggle very much to enjoy a day doing nothing without critisizing myself & laying blame on myself for not getting stuff done.
Today is going pretty well. Slept, watched some tv, naps & now toast for lunch. Best off all I’m still in my pyjamas & I feel all snuggly & warm.
To enjoy a day like this guilt free is so very, very nice
Sorry to hear that Katy. I hate days like that!
My word for the day would be -
I was asked to do something which could have been necessary, but knowing that person was really a desire to draw me into drama of their own creation. I obliged though on the off chance the need was real. Just not happily!
Sorry for delay in replying to everyone. I lost my balance again and went for another tumble so I've been a bit too uncomfortable. I agree any day you manage to get the basic list achieved is a major pass! Congrats. This is not going to be my usual wordy replies because pain levels are pretty high today... Sorry Will get back soon.
My word today definitely has to be PAIN.
pain physically from the jarring to spine when I lost balance again (so frustrating)
pain emotionally and psychologically from all the self-defeating nasty things I keep thinking.
Yesterday I had someone tell me I was malingering and wallowing in my misery. I don't understand why people can be so supportive of someone with an obvious injury yet can be so dismissive when the injury doesn't show like the damage to my spinal nerves. I live with pain 24/7; constantly battling to improve my abilities again. Jeez I had to learn to walk again. It's taken years of constant work to get to where I am today. Yet I'm malingering and wallowing!
I'm hurt, angry and very negative today... But I'm still slogging up that mountain (cliff?) of rehab to get back to a more active and fulfilling life.