Hello Chey87
Congratulations, how brave you are to make the commitment to be "you" today, I am just so sorry that it has left you feeling so flat. I think sometimes we role play a scenario in our head and rerun it and play it this way and that way and when the time comes it actually is nothing like we ever thought, this can be a good thing but also a weird thing too. You may have had a whole lot of things planned as to how you would react to them reacting and thought about what you would say and yes, as you said control, as in your brain while you are thinking these things through you control it.
In real life though, people are usually very accepting of other's I have found and as a community we are more understanding of people's sexuality and gender based choices..not to say this is true for everyone but I feel like we have some a long way.
There are a few threads on here that you may be interested in under the Sexuality and Gender Identity section that may really resonate with you and help you through this time.
We are here to chat, to share as much of your story as you would like to and to offer you some comfort and support.
Once again I congratulate you on a very special day.
Nice to chat to you Chey87.
Hugs
Sarah
