Struggling and regret

[miniforever]

My partner physically assaulted me and I protected myself to stop him from continuing so we both have injuries from the altercation.

This wasn’t the first time he’s physically assaulted me.

I’ve never reported any of the incidences. I was concerned for him that a police record will impact his job.

However I have just found out he reported me for attacking him and was advised by the police to call them if he felt unsafe.

I feel broken.  I protected him so he wouldn’t get a police record but now the police are protecting him for defending myself.

What he’s been doing now is whenever I disagree with him, he threatens to call the police.

He lied to them when in fact he hit me first. And now he denied he has ever hit me.  He told me I am crazy and made everything up. If I wouldn’t admit I am crazy, he would call the police again.

What should I do?

[Sophie_M]

Hi miniforever,
We’re sorry to hear what you’ve been going through with your relationship and the really difficult living situation. It sounds like it’s had some very serious impacts on your wellbeing. We’re glad you could share this here, as our lovely community will have kindness, advice and understanding for you.
In a healthy relationship, you should be communicated with and treated with respect, so it might be worth having a look at the 1800Respect pages and discuss how you’ve been treated by your partner and a potential safety plan for you. They're on 1800 737 732, or you can reach them on online chat as well.  
It sounds like it's really having an impact on how you're feeling day to day, so please know that there’s always someone here for you to talk it through with. The Beyond Blue counsellors are available 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or online. It's really important to be kind to yourself through this and knowing you are not alone. 
Thanks again for sharing here. We’re sure you’ll hear from some other community members once they spot your thread. We appreciate your kindness and openness in sharing to the forums, and we hope you can be kind to yourself, too while you’re going through this extremely difficult time.
Kind regards,
Sophie M