Hi AndyL,
Welcome back, I am sorry it is not under better circumstances, but such is the nature of these forums.
You have been dealing with a lot of challenges all at the same time, even the strongest of us buckle under those sorts of pressures, I am so sorry you are feeling so low.
Did your time in hospital help with the ideation? Or is it still lingering? I have been there and understand how hard it is to get out of that mindset. Was your breakdown connected with any one thing? or all of the challenges put together? I have been there also, it's like you just can't take any more, one last straw that broke the camels back so to speak.
How are you coping at home, living under the same roof as someone you are no longer in partnership is really uncomfortable, I have been there also. It seems we have had some similar challenges in this lifetime.
Are you talking with anyone? A friend, family member, counsellor?
What you are dealing with is somewhat easier if you know you are supported by someone you trust.
Please feel free to continue this conversation if you are comfortable doing so. I would like to offer some suggestions and support, just need to know what you have already done so far.
Take care,
indigo
