Hi to all, and thanks db for your reply earlier too, don't tell anyone but your a real sweetheart yaknow. But it's ok don't worry , our secret , and only 50,000 others here haha.
lots of aloneness for me this last few weeks. Some of it really enjoyable too , that always worries me because l know l could easily slip into the abyss. There's been some good movies on and a couple of shows and l haven't been able to watch tv a few yrs now so that makes a bit of a change. Or jump on the net or somehow waste away the whole wkend because l just can't be effd going somewhere.
Also had a bit of contact with my ex gf too and we've talked a bit and she even acknowledged some stuff which is huge thing for her and step , so proud of her. so a bit of anxiety though too in that lately wondering what will be for us and just not feeling like other people, too deep in thoughts.
Come to the decision too that l'm moving later in year , towns dead, l don't fit in , people are also snobbish and neighbours don't like me l've realized either. not that l'm into neighbours anyway and could really giva rats what they thought , not my people but it just adds more to the whole town thing l'm finding.
lt's friday and l'm thinking rx you giotta get away from the house this wkend , for christs sakes, or it'll be the 3rd or 4th wkend in a row l just haven't bothered. But l still don't feel like it. l'm enjoying the house living too much lately. Don't like the town but the house and spot and viewws is like heaven on earth. isn't that typical.
well that's about my rant for the day on aloneness lately . if you made it this far you have my sympathy haha.
Hope everyones ok out there.
rx
