Hi Asenna
I can't actually speak from a similar experience sorry. But I wonder if
you have had a read through some of the other threads in this forum, and found
other people who have been through similar and posted in previous
threads?
It sounds like you have been through a really tough time of it for the
last three years or so. Having a nervous breakdown, an inaccurate diagnosis and
treatment that may or may not have made it worse, and your partner leaving you –
that’s a lot to have had to deal with, all while trying to be the best parent
you can be for your two young children. Being a parent is hard enough, let
alone while managing all of your experiences as well.
It sounds like you are still trying to process her leaving, and come to
a point of acceptance. It may be that you are still grieving for her and the
loss of your relationship. I wonder if you might benefit from some counselling
for your grief and loss? I would expect that your Depression is making it worse,
as you are probably struggling to challenge your negative thoughts, and finding
yourself stuck in a cycle of rumination and despair. Does that sound possible?
I hope you are able to access some support that will hep you to cope
with the losses you have experienced,
SammyD
