Broke it up with me
I don't have much advise for you atm as I'm going through the same things just a couple weeks ahead.
I hurts like hell doesn't it. Why are they acting like we are the sole issue when they were the ones who broke our hearts and are calling the shots. My psych said to me yesterday that often the 'leaver' feels a sense of anger with themselves but takes it out on the 'left' as to not hurt so much or justify their actions.
It's really hard to process that someone can just stop loving you but even harder to process why they don't care anymore. I believe they do they are just handling the separation in their own way- even if that means making it harder on us 'lefts'.
I wish I could say different but I am yet to find rhyme or reason or even a way to feel better other than making sure you have friends and family around that you can talk to. They have helped me. I'm hoping for you she may realise what she is giving up. Give her the space and hopefully she'll come around but the sooner I accepted that that may never happen it did seem a little easier as I felt the hope wasn't allowing me to process the grief I need to feel.
All it would take is for her to be away from you for a few days where she can open up to her friends and tell them how she actually feels, that's when she will tell you when she returns.
If she does have depression then she won't contact you to see how you're going, because with this illness that doesn't happen, it not so much as she doesn't care, she doesn't have the strength to even consider doing this.
At the moment it seems to be stalemate, you wanting her to contact you and her wanting space, give her the time she needs, but in the meantime this is where you need to get the help you need, because it's possible that depression will be passed onto you from what's happened, and common when
Book an appointment with your doctor and please don't procrastinate, if you do then your situation will only get worse, and ask your doctor about the mental health plan, which entitles you to 10 free visits to consult with a psychologist.
Thanks Notsorosey for replying to this post as I know your own situation, much appreciated. Geoff.