2nd Sunday in May
Hi everyone...Haven't posted in just under a year, but good old Mothers Day seems to trigger me, so here I am writing out there to the unknown hoping someone understands.
I seem to struggle with how my relationship with my adult children isn't as good as others & that they are "just too busy for me & don't need me anymore". I feel like I'm not an important person in their lives anymore.
Yes my grandchildren are older now and I did choose to move into a regional area, but their care factor has dropped and it's been hurting me for a while & worse today.
I did get three texts from them this morning on mother's day, which is better than nothing, but the texts were all about "how they were going to be spoiled on their mothers day".... Texts & FB are so impersonal and a quick phone call doesn't take much effort.
I went off my antidepressants 2 weeks ago ever so slowly & have been ok, but ive noticed the same old tired black dog creeping in and today it's horrible.
I did my best as their mum at the time & perhaps I could have made wiser decisions, but I wasn't always wise back then...
I feel they sent me a "Happy Mothers Day" text early in the day just to get it over with so they could enjoy their own day....
I haven't been well and not one of them asked in their texts this morning, "how r u mum?"...
I can't drive down to see them due to ill health and I can't make phone calls to them as they are just "too busy" & I feel like I'm a hindrance phoning.
What to do? Do I just accept that I don't have a close family & accept the loneliness and depression that's been creeping up on me again lately?
To all those estranged mothers today feeling the hurt, please remember you are a unique special person & "Happy Mothers Day to you❤️!"
I do not really have a clue what I am doing on here.
I joined yesterday.
Your post resonates strongly with me.
Please let me tell you that I very much feel for you.
You still are a mum.
You gave birth to your children.
Yesterday I felt very similar to what you described that the dreaded D I call it had it's icy fingers ready to dig in and hold on tight. I hope that is not too graphic.
Aware of the looming "mother's day".
I lost my own mum late last year.
Younger adult son has been extremely distant since mum's funeral late last year.
Is also grappling with older sibling who is very unwell and does not let us know where he is. He feels safer living interstate.
Older son rings randomly with no caller ID
I listen for as long as I can. Somebody has to listen. We all need to be heard.
Have seen older son randomly when back in this state. Then moves on.
Had only seen younger child briefly at a concert since funeral.
Met at easter for lunch out and to give him his christmas and birthday presents.
Customer service at hotel was poor. All went downhill from there.
He lost it with me completely out of the blue. He has never been this way with me before we have always been very close.
I can't say too much in case might visit the site.
Sent message expressing love and never wanting to hurt me. He did hurt me terribly though.
Not intentionally though. His emotions just exploded like a volcano which is how his father and that family deal or not deal with their emotions. Was not like him at all.
His message asked for space which I am giving. Have not heard since.
Want to respect the space. Am petrified if I send anything as simple as wanting to give you your space that I will never see or hear from him again!
He told me that I talk too much. I have hardly seen him since my mum passed away and miss him so much.
I want to have a conversation with him. I do not want to send three word text messages that he does not reply to. He does not return phone calls. This had been building up before funeral.
So now I am worried about his health but cannot check on him.
I know that he works very hard and is tired.
I worked whilst having two children whom I did mostly everything for as their dad busy with his interests.
We visited both mums every mother's day and spent time with our mum and dad talking when we visited.Yes we went to them.
Society is spending too much time on technology and little time with real people talking.
Some parents tread on eggshells around their children.
Today my chrysanthemum bush (first time ever flowering so prolifically since planting in the last 18 months) stood out in my garden. I cut some flowers for mum and I cut some flowers for myself.
I also cut some and put them in a vase for mum next door with large family coming home tomorrow with new baby. Gave them to one of her daughters. I thought that her other children / teenagers might like to have some flowers for their mum to find when she walks in.
The dreaded D has not overcome me. Gardening was good. Giving flowers was good.
Am feeling grief now though.
I am meant to grieve my mum.
Mother's day is overrated anyway.
It also upsets so many mums like us and others who have suffered great loss worldwide.
So I offer you a bunch of home grown virtual flowers that are a beautiful dusty pink with tall stems.
I might go outside and cut some more. Talk to my cat and my plants.
Do something for you and honour your mum, or your nana.
That is what I am doing.
Helps a little.
Look after yourself.
sorry about length you might also be thinking that yes she does talk too much
Yes join the Club Ladybird22. My post earlier titled 'Mother's Day' says it all too. I never got a text either but my daughter is estranged so I gave in and phoned her, my number must be blocked by her so I emailed my daughter to call so we could talk, so she rang after two months not talking to me, she is 25 and told me she is leaving Australia to live in the UK for two years. She was polite but I don't think she wants me in her life, she doesn't have time to visit me before she leaves but is going to a resort with her dad in ten days before she leaves. It hurts to know all the special things I did for her as a mum; she no longer wants me in her life. She is successful now in her career and love life, I am too low for her I sense since I am a 63 year old pensioner aged 63. Life sucks.
HelloGail and ladybird22
Gosh if this post thing grows it will be quite a task writing all of the names
what do you call them icon names or avatar names?
I still can’t see any blue hearts near my icon
Still quite confused
So if I don’t respond is because I have not found a message
I think that we are all mum’s feeling very drained.
our adult children are growing up in a different generation to us and the world is different for them.
Respect was huge. Mine still know that.
Going to another country is very hard.
You will never be two low for her or anyone.
oh and now I have bold
You are a pensioner and no matter your age has nothing to do with it.
Respect as a human being.
As far as making time to text which I hate make time to call us - visit us
I am learning that we have to let them steer their own lives total control. We must start putting us first and not always bein available at the drop of a pin for them.
Change the talking in our heads
I have had more than enough of Mother’s Day. Whichever mother..
I am going to try to sleep
I hope that you both sleep well also
Emotions I'm so sorry I haven't replied as I've only just remembered to login on here after months...
Thank you from my heart for your beautiful reply, your recommendations to do something like flowers for my mum or nan is such aoveky idea. It gives us something to focus on rather than ourselves.