Relapse of C - PTSD medical while in intense therapy.

[GiGie]

So unfortunately my only sibling has been diganosed with stage 5 cancer. He has started Chemo - and though this is a good outcome for him and our family. (Very complex, genetic history), my very servere C- PTSD medical truma and depression and GAD due to a rare ID disability, keeps resurfacing - my own, complex genetics and disability and the managment of it is progressivly has been getting worse since the outbreak of COVID. The pandamic was the cataylist that opened pandora's box, of my mental health, till then I kept sweeping it under the carpet. for 30 years I have been fighting just to keep my head above water and to survive. I'm beyond tired of feeling this way, I feel like nothing helps - none of my doctor's and specialists dont ever want to actually listen. Im totally bent on changing this broken system, but I dont have much more in me, but I am the healthest I have ever been. Faith is all I have left, but now with a new specialist coming on board, I do not know if I can afford, now all my meds -and doctor apts and the specialist diet I need to keep myself I need to stay in remisson of my autoimmune conditions - its already starting to unravel, I have metabolic issues but I am quite literally using chocolate for the dopamine - so im binging on sugar I know I shouldnt have. Any advice to get out of this spriling hole again, I've been to the bottom of the pit at least 5 times in my life. Im scared -- the last time was far too deep. I feel like the next time I might not be able to get out at all. I have the best care and treatment - buut still doesnt seem enough.

[Sophie_M]

Hi GiGie
 
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[mmMekitty]

Hello GiGie, & welcome, 😺

It's awful you & your family have to deal with so much. I wish I had answers, but sadly, don't. It sounds so difficult. All I can think is to maybe find a healthier way to increase dopamine than chocolate, With all that sugar in it, I'm not sure that is the best way to do that. & you have said how important keeping to your diet is for your health.

My brief google, did mention things like getting out in the sun a bit, exercise, music, any pleasant pastime or hobby, & of-course, being social. heheh, everything we already know is good for us. 😸

I would think maintaining a good sense of humour would also help lift your mood.

A few days ago, I was sitting, holding a week old puppy, who had settled & was sleeping on my arm as I cradled her., So sweet & lovely, I swear my dopamine & serotonin levels rose like they haven't for quite a long time. I felt better for quite a while after., I wonder how long I might have continued feeling happy, if nothing disturbed my mood.

I see you have your faith, & wonder how much you are involved with your faith community, & if they offer help & support to you?

You are welcome to talk here, as & when you feel.

Warmly,

mmMekitty