My disability and trauma

[G12345]

I'm embarrassed that I have a life long disability and now trauma won't leave alone suicide was traumatising self harm was traumatising my history of sexual abuse was even more traumatising what's next I want someone to talk to me who can realate I don't feel like I have a right to be happy

[Sophie_M]

Hey G12345,

Thank you for posting here tonight. It sounds like you are in a difficult place right now and struggling with some pretty challenging feelings and thoughts. We are so sorry about the pain you are experiencing. At the same time, you have taken a step in reaching out here and have expressed that you want to talk to someone who will understand your situation. This shows a lot of courage and resilience on your part and we are very proud of you.

Please know that there is support and help available so you don't have to feel all alone in your healing journey. If you would like some help finding the right mental health supports, you can get in touch with our Support Service anytime at 1300 22 4636 or via their webchat 3pm-12am AEST at www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. They will give you support and point you in the right direction for help in your area.

We hope that you keep checking in to let us know how you're going, whenever you feel up to it.

[G12345]

I’m done with the disability I can’t get rid of I just wanna be happy but I feel like I have no right

[Sophie_M]

Hey G12345, trauma can have a big impact on how we feel about ourselves and the world around us. We can hear that you want to be happy but don't feel deserving of it. Many trauma survivors can feel this way and at times struggle to believe that they have a right to be happy. We hope you can come to believe that you are inherently worthy of happiness and care. Every child that's born is worthy of love and care and that inherent deservedness does not change. Negative life events can of course impact our self-perception and beliefs around what we deserve. Please know that you are a worthy, valuable individual who deserves the right support and care. We strongly urge you to talk to either our Support Service as we have mentioned before or other sources such as Lifeline.

We hope you will keep letting us know how you are doing, whenever you feel up to it.

[G12345]

I feel alone hurt abused all pain emotionally I feel guilty everything is my fault the abuse as I feel like I was guilty as a child not innocent like all children