I havnt yet been diagnosed as well like most others I am absolutely uncomfortable talking to people in person about it. In 2013 I finally broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. He was both physically and mentally abusive. Actually as I start to write this, I recognize he was also sexually abusive. After going to many dr's with him and him being treated for bipolar I was silly enough to stay for many years, It was bad but I didn't know another life I and suppose and I wasnt going to give up my pets for a crazy guy.
I meet my now husband and things have been great. We have moved, and money wasnt great for a while which we faught about but we moved on and now lifes wonderful again. That is until he says something that my ex used to say (not in a nasty matter) and I lose it to the point, he finds me hiding on the floor crying. This is where I used to sit after my ex would be abusive. The police where called and there was AVO on my ex a few times. Now if there is argument, I hid under a blanket, run around the house closing curtains and bawl my eyes out saying the police will come. My husband honestly, is wonderful and his done 100% nothing wrong. But lately its like only taking 1 word to set it off. I am then tired and so drained for a day or 2 after it happens. I feel so bad for him, having to see me go like this. He is extremely supportive.
My issue is I am not ready to discuss it face to face with anyone. And I know you should not diagnose yourself, but does it sound like PTSD ???
We live a wonderful life, live by the beach, no debt, great house and own our own business. Things honestly couldn't be better. Could being happy set PTSD off, like if your mind is relaxing can it like allow your mind to see things we dont. LOL i dont know how to explain that.
