Have no idea how to start this conversation

[EPett]

I can't stop drinking. I try, but it doesn't work. My parents are both gone, 2 brothers are gone, one from Cancer and the other from suicide. 2 sisters that are irrational and don't care, 1 brother that drops so many pills he thinks he is the normal one.. Another brother that thinks socializing is drinking.. where do I go from here.

I made a mistake and threw in a job and let go of my life. I was always in control even though I was drinking every day.

How did I let my life get like this

[EPett]

Hi Forward only,

Thank you for your kind thoughts and yes I am thinking positively towards a job and moving. I never knew how easy I had it back where I was, all though I was lonely most of the time. Now I have moved to depressing, again, my own doing for having no for thought of what would happen. I am truly depressed. The only thing keeping me going now is my little kitty kat and the hope of a job in this hell hole of a place.

As for will power, that is nul and void at this stage in my life. I thrive off positive people and surrounds, there is neither here so the alcohol keeps me company. I sit on my bed, watch my cat clean herself and look at my phone hoping someone will call. Its sad really. Thank you for responding to me on here and listening to my whinge. I hope you and chocka have a lovely day..

[Forward_only]

Lol well there's something positive...at least we have a chance to communicate with the outside world with technology these days. How would we be coping if we didn't have mobiles and internet?

try and think of this as a learning experience and a step towards a better future. Like go forward with positive steps without a definite time goal.

I don't feel like eating again today but might push some toast into a pumpkin cuppa soup and call that food for the day.

We are venting, not whinging lol

[EPett]

Hello Forward only

You said you don't feel like eating today. I have had many days like that. I have bought food for the house here and cooked. I find it is not appreciated so I don't bother eating it. God the people around me are so bad for me. 2 big shots of negative.

Stay strong for you little one..

[Forward_only]

Hello EPett,

Hope your evening is better than average.

You could try cooking for others and saving yours in a microwave container, put in fridge Nd forget about it till you feel like eating it later ?

cavemen use to hunt, prepare the carcass, then cook on open fire and eat. We shop for frozen dinners, then stick it in microwave oven and eat. I wonder what a step up in evolution from that would be ? Lol

[geoff]

Hello EPett and Forward only, cooking and then eating the food yourself doesn't have much joy, but if someone else makes you a cup of coffee/tea it's the best and if you cook for other people who don't appreciate the meal then they should cook what they want, because this isn't any help to you at all.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Forward_only]

Hope you are having a good weekend Geoff...and epett

[Forward_only]

Hey EPett !

How you doing ?