Trigger warning: I was attacked by my partner unexpectedly. They have
never shown signs of any aggression before this happened. We just came
from a bar (my partner's drink may have been spiked). I don't know what
to do next. A few months after, I wen...
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Trigger warning: I was attacked by my partner unexpectedly. They have
never shown signs of any aggression before this happened. We just came
from a bar (my partner's drink may have been spiked). I don't know what
to do next. A few months after, I went out with a friend who I trusted.
I'm usually a cautious person but I trusted my friend. I only had two
beers that night but that was all I remember. I know I had about a 12
hour window where I don't remember anything but I keep getting snippets
and flashbacks that I somehow know are linked to that night. I get
flashbacks of those incidents often. Just after the blackout, I would
wake up either crying or screaming and shaking, drenched in sweat. That
lasted for two months, almost every night when I was completely alone in
a boarding house. I still get really nervous expressing this and I'm far
more cautious of the world now. I feel like I have to be vigilant all
the time and on my guard. Along with this, I moved countries for work
but I was made redundant there due to mismanagement, I became homeless,
experienced financial hardship (unemployed for a year), had a threat of
armed robbery, had malaria, and severe food poisoning. I lost count the
amount of times my life was genuinely in danger. All of this happened
overseas and within 6 months. I'm now back home and feel sick to my
stomach most of the time. I find it very hard to find meaning here when
everything is easy, and I have people around me genuinely care for me
and can provide for me, instead of being alone overseas. I don't know
what to do. I feel so lost. I see a psychologist next week though, I
hope that might help.