Hi All Not sure what Im looking for maybe just for someone to say, I
feel ya, give me a pat on the back... I feel defeated by life and don't
trust anyone or anything anymore, I feel the good things are a set up.
Just like everyone else my life has ha...
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Hi All Not sure what Im looking for maybe just for someone to say, I
feel ya, give me a pat on the back... I feel defeated by life and don't
trust anyone or anything anymore, I feel the good things are a set up.
Just like everyone else my life has had it moments.Childhood - Sexual
Abuse for 5 yearsTeenage years - Depression, rebellion, drug abuse,
crime etc. A bad relationship, which ended with intervention orders,
which were broken by physical damage and property damage.Get my life
together, meet a nice man at 19, married at 22Adult years - 6 months
after getting married, we were in a serious road crash and 4 people
died, my parents included, my husband and I were seriously injured. Life
injures. Husband I divorced 4 years later, it was amicable we had both
fallen out of love trying to repair ourselves and we weren't the same
people anymore. About a year later I meet another guy, relationship was
normal, we started to try and have a child, due to damage from the crash
and 3 miscarriages they worked out I couldn't have kids. The last
miscarriage however, he didn't care and walked out on me. (literally
packed his stuff and left never to be seen again)Dealt with the fact I
wouldn't have kids and moved on with life.Fast forward another year and
I meet the man on my dreams, he wants to look after me, gave me an
instant family and everything I needed. Should have seen the narcissist
coming but just wanting to be loved and that family feel again. I wanted
a baby even more now, this family was everything I needed. So after two
more miscarriages I got help and managed to carry to full term. I had an
emergency c section, the nurse pulled the umbilical cord out when she
broke my water. This is where I noticed things changed. He started to
control everything, had to stay at the hospital that night, made me go
home the next day. Life went down hill from here. The last beating he
gave me, he her my child and nearly killed me, this wasn't the first
time. I had to leave my baby with him to run to the neighbours to call
the police. He was arrested and went to jail for two years. It's only
now Im realising what he did and all the things he did.I get help see
the right people and take the meds. Does anyone else just feel exhausted
with the drama in their life, I just want peaceIm so tired of it all.