Hi SN
i have been refraining from posting here as I don’t want to take the spotlight on a forum that is not mine. But to be honest I haven’t been doing so great. It’s been a few weeks now of feeling numb, nothing and darkness. The pain of living hurts the expectations the assumptions and all things in between.
My friendships are vanishing, my thoughts are circling downward and I am feeling the depression sucking me in and I think I am letting it.
My psycologist said that I may not let go parts of my depression which is okay. There are parts I like. The ability to see and empathise with pain. The ability to feel so deeply. The way I can search within myself the dark and the light. Life with depression makes me feel real sometimes. Not when I am numb and uncaring about everything. But when I really feel, it’s real.
So I didn’t want to take the spotlight but I did. Now if anyone would like to share I would really like that. I’ve been missing not hearing from anyone.
SN how have you been of late? Any achievements or events of note? Any realisations or new coping mechanisms?
Hi dragonflies I thought I saw another thread of yours and wondered what it’s title was. How have you been? Sorry I haven’t been in contact. It’s been hard to see through the fog. I suppose I was waiting for someone to reach out first.
hoping everyone is still swimming.
lulu
