Taking antidepressents for the first time tomorrow morning.

[Cesca1557]

Hi,

Im not really sure why im posting this but Im feeling really unsure about taking medication tomorrow. I have had depression for about 7 years, but at the beginning my mum thought i was too young (i was 12-13), and its only now that I have finally decided that I need something else to help as I cant seem to make myself happy on my own.
I am really hopefull for what the antidepressents will do, but I am also really worried. My father has bipolar, and I am really worried that by taking them, it could trigger it in me. I dont have bipolar my self, but due to the genetic predisposition to it and the increased chance of getting it as my dad has it, im really worried that this might be enough to set it off.
As much as I want to be happy, if it risked me going through what he has gone through and put us through over the years, I wouldnt do it.

Sorry, im not really sure what the point of this was, I think I just wanted to vent a little bit.

Cesca

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How was your day?

[Cesca1557]

You definitley have had a very productive day! be proud of how much you managed to achieve even if the day was only okay!

most of my day was pretty good, but a big wave of sadness hit me after dinner tonight which has been hard. i think part of it is that im just exhausted from a massive few weeks of studying for tests and exams so am going to try to get to bed soon and hopefully things will be a bit better tomorrow morning. Ive had a few pretty good days over the weekend, and i wasn't expecting that to last for as long as they did so im grateful for that atleast!

[blondguy]

Hello Cesca

Im sorry I am late on your thread. I just wanted to say that you are stronger than I was when I started here in Jan 2016 when my depression was chronic. I didnt have the courage you do.

When our brain disagrees with us life can be 100 x more difficult for sure. (depression/anxiety)

You have had a huge amount of super gentle people offer their support (which you deserve)

I just wanted to say you have all my support as someone that has taken AD's for 21 years and have done well in my career and personal life for doing so

You have a heap on your plate right now Cesca. Your workload is HUGE!

I really admire your courage

you are not alone here

Paul

[KMTE]

Hey cesca just checking in and seeing how its going? I'm on day 9 of ads today and starting back at work for the first time since my last two rough couple of weeks it's making me very anxious. I know the deep feeling of sadness that washes over as many people do, but at the risk of jinxing myself it's been maybe a week now since I've had one. Hoping you are well

[Cesca1557]

Hi paul, Thankyou! Im trying my best but yes it can be much more difficult, makes us stronger people though
Yes there are some lovely people here, im very grateful for their support and kindness
Thankyou so much! Glad to hear that the ADs have helped so much, hope you are okay today!

[Cesca1557]

hi KMTE, definitely feeling better this morning, i think having a bit of sleep helped.
Congrats on reaching day 9 and good luck with work! It must be hard getting back into it after having a break but Im sure youll do so well. Let me know how it went after you have finished your first day! Do you have any strategies or techniques for helping with your anxiety when it hits?
thats so good to hear, so happy for you that you have had a week relatively free of sadness! makes such a difference when you have a few positive days 🙂

good luck again for your first day back!

[KMTE]

Thanks the day went pretty good I felt quite anxious but mustnt have been too bad because I seen the day out! I do my headspace app every morning and when at work or out I just do do the deep stomach breathing and really concentrate on what I'm doing. Even count things I see or something like that. It doesn't always work but I'm pretty new in this whole anxiety depression thing so I'm sure it gets easier with practice 🙂

[Pysis]

Hi cesca

how's you day been

nath

[Cesca1557]

Well done KMTE! you made it through day one.
thats so good that you already have a few different techniques and strategies to help with your anxiety
I find that writing down everything that comes in to mind helps to calm it down as you cant write as fast as you think so in order to write it all down, your thoughts have to slow down. Sometimes it doesnet work though and deep slow breathing generally can calm me down a bit.
yes exactly, what a positive attitude 🙂 practice and finding out what works best for you will help so much
are you still getting many side effects from the AD's?

Hi nath, thanks for asking.
Today was a reasonably good day actually, i was at home for most of the day watching lectures for uni, i didnt get as much as i wanted to get done, but still watched quite a few. I wanted to write out some notes for a few but i wasnt able to concentrate enough for that. my mind felt a little foggy today, im not really sure why, but even when i was at my boxing gym class, i struggled to listen and comprehend what each of the combinations were which has never really happened before. it could have just been that i was exhausted today, so am going to try to go to bed now and get a few good hours of sleep in before tomorrow
how was your day?
thinking of you

[Pysis]

Hi Cesca ( just wondering weather there's any nicknames you have we could call you.)

im glad you had a good day it seems like your feeling a lot better these last few days which is really good. It's good that you got some work done for uni and I kno exactly how it feels to have a cloudy head I have them a lot including today, I've kind of found for me it has to do both with how tierd I am and sometimes the weather. I hope you have a good nights sleep.

my day was pretty good thank you I got to work fencing again after what feels forever the weather was terrible but it was so nice to do a physical job, I've lost a lot of muscle though normally I'm lifting 100kg posts and today I was struggling with the 60kgs but now I can work I hope I can get back to where I was. It is a pretty cool place we are working we are putting fences up for goats at a goat breeders place so there where lots of tiny little goat kids everywhere and it's completely off the grid it's run on solar power and wind tubules which is pretty cool for out here. And then I heard from a birds of prey expert I know and he wants to come up and do some work with me photographing the local birds of prey around here so we will be going out at night looking for owls and stuff as well as looking for birds of prey during the day.

thinking of you too

Nath