Taking antidepressents for the first time tomorrow morning.

[Cesca1557]

Hi,

Im not really sure why im posting this but Im feeling really unsure about taking medication tomorrow. I have had depression for about 7 years, but at the beginning my mum thought i was too young (i was 12-13), and its only now that I have finally decided that I need something else to help as I cant seem to make myself happy on my own.
I am really hopefull for what the antidepressents will do, but I am also really worried. My father has bipolar, and I am really worried that by taking them, it could trigger it in me. I dont have bipolar my self, but due to the genetic predisposition to it and the increased chance of getting it as my dad has it, im really worried that this might be enough to set it off.
As much as I want to be happy, if it risked me going through what he has gone through and put us through over the years, I wouldnt do it.

Sorry, im not really sure what the point of this was, I think I just wanted to vent a little bit.

Cesca

[KMTE]

I have been having trouble breathing particularly at night (it wakes me up) and I've been to the doctor several times and he thinks it's just my anxiety but I'm still not so sure. It's only been happening since I've been taking the ads so I'm hoping it's not one of the more serious side effects or I'll have to stop them and start on something else in a couple of weeks. All the other side effects have seemed to subside. After a great day yesterday last night and this morning have not been so great so I'm having a down day and a day off work. Back to the doctors to check what's going on with this scary breathing thing. Hope you're going well 🙂

[Cesca1557]

hi nath,
happy with anything you come up with to be honest!
yea i did have a few good days, last night wanst great and im not feeling great this morning. but im going to try to force myself to go into uni to see a few friends which will hopefully help.
i didnt get much sleep sadly but ill try to get to bed earlier tonight.

Atleast you have started again though! im sure in no time you will lifting close to the 100kg again! it just takes a bit of time to regain strength. That would be so lovely! to escape to somewhere like that and be surrounded by cute little goats.

wow! thats so exciting, so much to look forward to!

KMTE - Oh thats not good at all! definitley keep talking to your GP about it because there may be a different AD that doesnt have those side effects if you do find out that it is caused by the ones you are on.
Sorry you are not feeling great today, but atleast you have a great day yesterday where you conquered your anxieties! It sucks how often when you have a good day, it kinda knocks it out of you.
thankyou, hope you find out a bit more about whats happening to you at the GP today!

[startingnew]

hey sorry its taken me so long to get here. ive been struggling abit myself but im well enough to support others again so... how are you going? how are you going with your studies?

[Cesca1557]

please don't appologise SN!! The most important thing you need to worry about is making sure you are well and healthy. take all the time you need
havent been feeling great today at all, i wanted to go to uni today because seeing friends usually does help but i couldnt seem to motivate myself to get out of bed and get ready so im still at home, but have started watching some lectures so thats good.
Uni isnt too stressfull at the moment as i dont have any more big assessments or exams for about 4 weeks, and one of those weeks is a hoilday break, so i just have to focus on staying on top of everything and trying to learn as much as possible.

i hope today is a better day for you and that the pain has eased a bit! you are so strong and will get through this

thinking of you

[Pysis]

Hi cesca

im sorry your not feeling overly good today unfortunately you are going to have them it's just part of getting better you feel good for a while then you have a period where you don't feel good again. I personly was doing really well before something stressful and emotionally painful cuased me to go backwards again but I think Im starting to get better again. I'm sorry you didn't sleep very well I don't sleep well myself most nights so I know how hard it is.

yeah I'm happy I got back to work yesterday and I'm working there agian tomorrow and maybe Friday. I'm a bit sore today I really need to work on my strenghth again. I'm really happy I've got some positive stuff to look forward to again in my life for so long I've had nothing, today I just got accepted into a CFA course so that means I'll have another thing to look forward to.

i hope your feeling better

nath

[KMTE]

Congratulations Nath that's great news! Went to the doctors and need a chest X ray and a lung function test because of my breathing trouble. And I need to stop the meds because it's only really started happening since taking them and it could be a coincidence but it's not worth the risk. Sorry your not having a very good day either Cesca 😞

[Pysis]

Thanks k (can I call you that?)

im sorry to hear about your breathing problems I hope you can get to the bottom of it. Are you going to go on different medication?

thinking of you

Nath

[KMTE]

Yes K is fine 🙂 I think I will try a different kind of ad but I will need to wait a bit I guess until the old one is out of my system. It feels like I'm back to square one when I was just starting to feel good! I get the results tomorrow morning. Thanks for the support it really helps 🙂

[startingnew]

hi KMTE

i wish you the best for your results, i hope its nothing to scary or bad. the waiting part i find is the worst bit

i can however extend my hand out for you to hold and squeee as you wait

sending lots of hugs

xoxoxo

[startingnew]

Hi Cesca

thats ok, tomorrow is a new day and make it your goal to get there tomorrow 🙂

its good that youve started watching the lectures as well, thats probably the boring part esp since your on your own but its good in a way as you can stay home without falling too far behind.

im sure youll do great with your assessments/exams and we are right here cheering you along as you go 🙂