Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[Guest_1055]

Oh MM, are you ok? Concerned for you

[monkey_magic]

Doing some thinking & reflection recently...I'm scared actually. A lot has happened. Been thinking about why I put myself In so much danger and I think it stems down to losing a baby and partner. And being abused and probably just having ENOUGH. I have somewhere to move to but haven't packed up my car bcas it's at a friends. I'm stuck.

[ecomama]

Dearest monkey, hugs for the loss of your baby. Hugs for the loss of your family. long hugs. I'm really feeling for you.

Thankyou for sharing. These are deep and reflective thoughts. Your poetry is beautiful.

I loved reading about spending time with your grandmother. xx

Hope to read more about how you're going.

Love EMxxxx

[monkey_magic]

You've been on my mind quite a bit Eco. Hugs to you and your fam too. Going through quite an amount...

Your inspirational life ... So much... Well... Mirrors...mine.

I wish I could tell you everything, I wish we could speak. I don't want to share everything here, but I truely value you and your court case and what you faced. I faced and am still facing...well... you'd have to experience or see to believe and I just know that you'll believe me.

And 🐚 Shell....I hope you're walking and many hugs your way to.

And Sleepy, and Grandy, and DB and so many others that have been with me! ❤️

[ecomama]

You have been on my mind too monkey.

Last week I was in my garden and thought "monkey", where is she, what's going on... something.
I sensed it.

I hear you.
I KNOW and feel with a resounding energy what's going on. Don't need the specifics.

You are STRONG.
You will get tired.

I am here WITH YOU.

We will walk your journey together.

You have friends.
You are loved.

You are SUPPORTED in your fight against all evil.

the cleansing you so desperately want is happening.

Alexa would say ... "I'm putting a bubble of protection around you" - it's done.

On a Duncan Trussell podcast, they spoke of the origins of the magical phrase "Abracadabra" lol...

it's from the Hebrew phrase which means (sic) "As I speak, I create".

SPEAK what you are creating.
Write it all down.
This is how you express your true self and it's beautiful.

Love always EMxxxx

[monkey_magic]

Omigosh you really do get it. Yes evil exists! Bad things keep coming my way...and I am cleansing myself. Yes, you understand.

Thankyou. 💞

[Guest_1643]

hi monkey, i relate to the packed car, the searching for home, and ur beautiful feelings expressed here, u do have a way with words... i'm so sorry for ur pain. with u and care for u.

[Guest_1055]

Think I just want to give you a hug. I am sorry too about the loss of your little baby MM.

Are you feeling a bit lost MM?

That is so good you feel a sense of connection and understanding with EM. She has a mother's heart.

[Ggrand]

Hello lovely Magic...

Im deeply sorry for the loss of your little baby,,,That’s so sad..my heart goes out to you lovely lady...

I agree that evil exists, and keeps following some people around unrelenting...I think that we as survivors of domestic abuse have this evil implanted deep into our minds because we lived with it for such a long time...and that’s what we are constantly fighting....and one day I do believe that we will destroy that evil we received by living with abusers, because we are good people, kind people and it wasn’t our fault....We are not evil but we have seen evil and know what it has done to us....We are stronger then any depression, PTSD, anxiety, because we know...

Its okay Magic to only share that which you wish to...We are here for you...no matter what....You got this precious lady..your strong, your beautiful, your courageous, your heart and soul is who you are...not your thoughts..

Sending some love, care and hugs dear friend..

Grandy..

[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy,

👏✔️🌟💞

Wish I could transport myself to another country atm....too long in lockdown...don't really feel like living locked in the house to be real with everyone, this isn't the way it's meant to be. I've lost income & have fears & I really don't want those to come to fruition...

I'd like my life back, it's disgusting wearing a bacterial infected mask outside and it's disgusting that my family and I are losing our mental health and that many ppl around me are destroyed...

I wasn't functioning & am now on meds ( tablets) beautiful Australian ppl r losing so much bcas of this situation & U know what freedom of speech is being shut down and our right to choose and I went through all this and now others are, divide and conquer...criminals win...but God knows...and spirituality soars and cuts through and the truth must prevail.