Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[Guest_1055]

Good to see your name pop up again MM. And hi all.

I too have wanted to go trampolining. It would be great exercise, especially for our lymphatic system. And it looks fun. Maybe it would be quiter on a week day.

Absolutely don't know much about cars. What do you think you will do about your car?

[golden82]

Hi MM, what a great idea the trampolining sounds. You have a lot of get up and go in you 🙂 i would never even think of it, let alone venture out to do it. As Shelly said perhaps try it another time. Sounds like you are going well and taking power of your own life.. that must feel good. I plan to this week too; to start to stand up against bullies. So many bullies in this world. Wish there were more ppl like us all here. Have a great week MM🌝

[monkey_magic]

Where did my live life to the full mentality go. I'm a slacker and boy do I feel it. Lounging around on the couch for days. I lost part of myself and I have to live with that. I don't like it and I don't like my half assed life. Ever since I was injected with that crap it stole from me. I'm not who I used to be and I can't get her back.

On another note I've booked my car with the mechanic so hopefully he figures it out.

Oh and I swam 3 hrs in the week not that day. It was 60 min 3x week. 3 hrs a day would be a lot although I used to be able to do that much.

I feel like a sook today wondering why no one really checks in with me to see if I'm ok. I try to have a positive front but deep down I regret ever having anything to do with mental health. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me and I'm still paying the price.

Golden tell those bullies where to go. No one deserves to be bullied.

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

Ive been in pretty good spirits recently. Worked 3 X week, counch lounging the rest of it but I haven't gone down like I did and feel on top of things.

I keep trying to win the lotto. Oh could you imagine the fun of winning and buying till your heart's content.

I ended up with a UTI ( urinary tract infection) and showed up for work and boy was that a disaster. I couldn't hold it in and ended up wetting myself and the office chair. I just tucked it in like nothing happened.

Have put some injector cleaner in my car and so far so good. It's driving normally again. Mechanics back here doing a service on it as we speak.

Ive realised since being injected my emotions aren't normal. For eg I can't really cry. If someone close to me died I'd prob be emotionless. Sucks.

Anyhow lovely ppl I might wrap it up. That's a wrap.

🙉

[Croix]

Dear MM~

I'm glad things are going OK. I'd not be suprised at your saying your emotions are not hte same. You went though a very traumatic extended period wihtout any say in it. People react in different ways. Can I suggest you still have the emotions but they are hidden from you and everyone else at this stage.

I went though a period wiht PTSD etc where I felt nothing for people and knew my feelings were out of whack. In time the did return

Croix

[demonblaster]

Hey Magic and everyone ☺

I'm glad hearing your spirits better I've been concerned that you've been feeling pretty average.

Possibly having some works helped. A reason to get up and go and be out of the house for a bit.

There's been hard times with covid restricting lives which for you is hard your spirit needs space and movement. That might have added to your blaghh-ness.

It's ok to have times where there's not much goin on but be careful darl I suggest keep at your excercise even at randoms good. It can be dangerous in poor mh and too easy to stagnate.

You're a warrior because you don't let things keep you down.

Your emotions might thaw in time lovey. When you get out and about and taste life again I hope anyway that they'll return. It's in you to feel so could just be smothered atm with so much goin on.

Our cars in too same thing wow it was a friggen rev head bit scary. Waiting on a part. Might be changing mechanics this bloke has a touch of arrogance, slow as and a poor communicator. Pretty damn average. Good luck with yours.

UTI's are wicked. Poor thing having an accident geez just what ya need when you're already crook. They can bring on esp with elderly temporary dementia symptoms. Not sure about younger people don't think so though. Nasty stuff hope you've picked up.

Keep on goin hun. Have you been doing any painting lately you got pleasure from that.

Ok lovey take care ok. We have the fire 🔥 going it's just at times we need to stoke it.

You've got what it takes our warrior ✊

Love and care always 🤗☺🐒

[monkey_magic]

Hi all,

I think my lack of feeling is due to being injected with antipsychotics...even with time I'm not the same as I was before. Even my sex drive hasn't returned...at all. I'm also a lot less social, a lot of things have changed really.

DB I haven't been painting. I have canvases in the garage but they sit there. No need really, I've done so many artworks that are taking up space at a friend's house, even the paint by numbers ones are taking up space I don't really have....because....it looks like I'm moving! My grandmother is going to be put in residential care and mum and I are going to be living at her place for a couple years so she can still get the pension. It's the same suburb we are moving to just a slightly bigger house.

I did look online and message a rental on flatmates.com but no one got back to me. The granny flat is very close to my job but it looks like I'll be moving with mum to my grandmothers. It's going to be a hassle though because all of my grandmother s stuff is still in the house. There's going to be stuff on stuff.

I've been doing some thinking about courses I could study in the future, and the future basically that is what it looks like because I feel a tad guilty not doing much. I keep telling myself I will go to the gym and it doesn't happen and I expect more from myself. I don't work much either and feel as if I'm on a hamster wheel not really getting anywhere that progressive.

I really do need to lose more weight. I'll achieve that through being more active and I must do it, I can't keep letting myself down.

And the games I pay for online. Sheesh it drains my bank account. Need to limit that for sure. It's so easy to spend a lot and lose a lot.

I've been watching the voice and really getting into it and YouTubing the coaches music and loving it. Rita Ora especially. I was listening and watching a lot of her video clips tonight. It's nearly 5am and I'm still awake and not tired.

I feel like I do my best thinking at night.

Hopefully your car is sorted DB. Mine still isn't but the mechanic thinks I may be able to live with the problem. It's driving a bit different at times, a bit shaky- I dunno!

MM 🙉

[Croix]

Dear MM~

It's taken me a few day to get back to you, and I'm sorry you are not 100%.

All the things you mention, from playing too many expensive games to lack of energy and not doing things, sounds as if you are rather down at the moment. It's easy to see everything as shortcomings in yourself, but it ain't necessarily so (that's a quote:)

I know past medication will have had an effect, however do you think your Gran going into residential care and you moving with you mum is weighing on your mind?

I don't think anyone who sees someone they love having to go into care will feel god. It sort of emphasizes how they are not the person we knew, but a less capable one.

As well moving you own, and your Mum's stuff, into an already full house sounds a bit daunting. Can you pack a lot of your Gran's stuff away to make room?

Is the house convenient for your work, gym and so on?

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Hi Croix,

My grandmother is definitely changing- all apart of life as it's constantly changing. I don't know where we would put her things- mainly clothes to make room for our clothes, she has every cupboard and draw full! I guess we will work something out.

The house is in the same suburb so it's as close to things as I am currently.

I do often see the shortcomings in myself, I must see the latter more often.

We are currently puppy sitting as my brother and his girlfriend are in Hawaii- she is adorable.

The move has been pushed back a week because my grandmother needed more time. She was livid about going but has agreed to go.

I've been relaxing at home recently. I didn't book any shifts at work bcas I thought we were moving this week.

🐒

[demonblaster]

Hey our Magic 🐒 and all 👋

I read recently how you're going. Got here finally ☺
Dear girl it saddened me hearing how you're feeling. That you're not feeling depressed as such is good to hear. Sounds like your holding👍

Dealing with past/present situations bringing on negative change is just stinkin hard work eh

In hard times we tend to only listen to the constant negatives creating lack of motivation

Feels like it's how it'll stay but it's not true!
It can be worked through as you've done often in the past and again I've no doubt.

A lots been holding you back darl including covid restrictions having a harsh effect on your life as you know.
Your dear Nan going into a care home would be very unsettling. Adjustments hard esp for our loved elderly. In time I hope she'll settle into a new routine with benefits being amongst caring people to help her with daily routines

I know well how lack of motivation affects us.
We really want to do things like the gym weight loss work etc in your case.
The key word that'll be of help for you is want.

If we believe our feelings that it won't change it may not.

Belief carries a lot of power that we can change is a powerful step towards recovery

It's not gone Monks it's still there.
One of your many strengths we've seen is you don't let down times keep you down

To help reignite that fire 🔥hun no matter how much our minds say no is for us to gently push through

Activity & even movement I'm learning can bring on motivation.
Doesn't have to be much to begin with. It's easier in "baby steps". breaking up the seemingly enormous task without being overwhelming

The rewards help motivation, change our focus to better feelings about ourselves leading to more

It can help to think about why we feel this way too.
This proactive thought can ignite motivation by how/if it can be changed or worked around

Your call darl, I suggest walking. It's gentle on a tired body.
Looking around/being outside is stimulating & bonus excercise creates energy

By making those first few steps Monks we activate the want.
My legs ? from the back makes walking v.hard work. Yesterday I did. It left a nice glow of achievement.
Changed my downward spiral of focus even if temporarily it's a start to mental/physical recovery

You're a survivor lovey. It's worth the effort to get back opposed to being in a rut

We believe in you 🤗🔥🐒

You got this!

Love/care Aunty bunny 🐇