Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Same Em, I really hope I can get it working again. If I charge the battery it's fine but the batt goes flat again bcas apparently something is draining it. Auto electrician thought he solved the problem but didn't. I'm going elsewhere to see if they can solve it. Not happy if I've spent all this money and it's a lemon. And I don't have the money for another car.

Yeah he was a rat alright!

I don't think I've met a human who I've trusted that hasn't hurt me or let me down in some way. Trust is fickle.
I have strong relationships...but who knows what has been said about me...ppl say things...

People are one way to your face and another way behind your back

I like straight forward, truthful ppl..

Come to think of it I keep a lot of people at arms length...I obv don't fully trust them.

Em, those rides you've been taken on does open your eyes and it makes you wiser.

I was such a social butterfly with loads of friends now I'm more reserved. I don't jump everytime someone wants me to do something either.

You can love ppl but putting your trust in them is another thing altogether.

"Shake it off"

[Guest_4643]

Hey Monkey, just wanted to see how you're going?

[monkey_magic]

Hi,

Cute profile picture change.
I'm going ok, just rolling with the punches.

The darkest days are behind me, I'm sure of that. But then you never really can be sure of anything, because life can be unpredictable and I don't know what's ahead of me.

So I'm just doing what's in my control ATM.

Eating well
Fixing problems
Reading
Photography
Social media
Chatting to friends over the pH and net
Cooking

Soon I'm going to walk ( see how I go) to the doctor's. It's a fair distance but if I go slow and rest I might be ok. I can catch a bus, but I'm going to try walking.
My " monthly's" haven't stopped in quite a few months ( light) and I want to check that everything is ok.

Reducing meds in the past caused this, well that's when it became irregular so just know meds have to be reduced slowly. I've had complications by reducing possibly by too much. Because then this happened.

Anyway I hope you're fairing ok and doing your best despite your circumstances.
😁

[Guest_4643]

Hey Monkey, thanks. I wanted something different so I decided on that, and hopefully it makes people feel loved and smile.

I hope you're ok.

[ecomama]

Hey monkey

Well it absolutely sounds like an auto electrical job if the new battery keeps being drained.

Have you Googled it?

I hope you can sort it once and or all. Big pain.

My tyres cost almost $900 today which I've known about since last Feb.... my tyre guy said I had quite a bit more time on them then but I reckoned the time was up lol.
Rego check this week. Fingers crossed for that.

How did you go walking to the Drs today?

I'm glad you're following up on that issue. I'm sure you'd be feeling quite drained because of that too.

Bestest wishes
EM

[monkey_magic]

Morning Em!

I did google after you're suggestion and a few reasons came up. Thankyou! I google everything and don't know why I didn't think to google that.

My rego is also due, this week. All my travelling / road trip money is dwindling away. At the same time glad I found out about these car problems now.

I was looking back at messages sent between the seller and I. I asked him if the car had been serviced regularly he said yes. I also said I just wanted a reliable car and he said the car has no issue at all.

I'm up early to go doc's this morning. I got trapped watching my favourite shows and thought I'll just go in the morning, so here I am, coffee in hand and will get ready.

Yes, I've been tired, and drained Em... I haven't felt 100% for a very long time. I'm usually sleepy, and can sleep a couple hrs during the day after a full night's rest. After those drugs gave me side effects, they stuck. I've read it can take months or years to return back to normal but to me it feels permanent. Unlucky I guess. Makes me angry thinking about it.

I wish U luck registering your car!

$900 on tyres...geez.

I think mine cost $400-$500 each, I have big tyres but they're pretty new.

Hope you're day goes well today.

💗😁

[ecomama]

Hey monkey

Dr Google helps again lol.

You know how that guy said the car has been regularly serviced?
Then he would have had the record of those Services and / or the mechanic to check with and / or kept a Log Book of work done.

Yep for my car 4 tyres @ $200 each plus a wheel alignment.
Pink slip passed.

Sorry to hear your trip funds are dwindling, I really hope you can get your savings back UP there!! (Mine too btw lol).

Was the Dr any help with the bleeding issue?
I hope you get that sorted too!!

Being drained of iron constantly is NOT helpful to our energy levels at all. Hugs.

I saw you writing on another thread we're both on and I'm feeling the same as you.

IDK what to do with these feelings but to talk with my Counsellor on Monday.

My darling chicken is hanging in there but very close to the end.
Alexa's dog, her constant companion, is also seriously unwell.

Our pets being so unwell has brought up so many feelings of grief, from the past also.

You WILL get through this monkey.

Bad things happen to GOOD people and from my experience, there's little true justice in our world.

I hope more and more that we can all attract people into our lives that share our values, intent and purpose.

Mine include living gently in the world, being kind and loving to all creatures.
These values are certainly undermined with evil ppl around.

Are you still working?
I go back to work next week, maybe Monday IDK yet lol. I just texted my boss now lol.
IF she's in on Monday then I'll go then.
If not then maybe not lol.

Hugs monkey, this recovery is tough on you but I actually have complete confidence that if ANY ONE will recover from the effects of the drugs then YOU WILL. 100%.

Love EM

[monkey_magic]

Hi Gorgeous Em,

My car also passed it's pink slip but the micanic said there's a small air hole in the motor? Something else I need to fix, lol. The cars going again with a new battery and the auto electrician said he checked everything and there's nothing wrong with the car. We'll see, lol.

I've driven it today and damn if felt good!

Before I saw the car I asked about service history and the seller said he didn't have the paperwork. I've now spent $1,400 on the car. If I have it for a few years I'll be happy. Fingers crossed. I'm sure I'll be spending more as well.

I've had my bloods done. Doc said that's the first step and we'll go from there.

I'm glad you're seeing your councillor about those feelings. It will get better Em!

I just hope that good overthrows the evil in the world. I've got my foot in areas I'm passionate about and hope to create some sort of change. I don't know if it will happen but I do know people are speaking up!

I'm working next week. Just a couple days.

I was watching a knowledgeable documentary and a lot of people were permanently affected by the drugs. It is what it is. It was saying that the drug's effects were there even after discontinued use.

If u need to take more time for yourself before going back to work I would. You know what you can handle though and distractions can be a positive thing.

I've just bought four Tops online...did some retail therapy to feel better. Do what makes you feel good Em inbetween the heartbreak, I'm sure you will. If you've taken on the world and won in the past, U can do it again. You will get through this too.

🙏💘💗

[ecomama]

Yes I know I will. Just really sad atm. Darling chicken is in my bed now and it's like she just won't give up. It's like her mind and love is keeping her going but her body is giving up.

It's really hard. I don't want to take her to the Vet to end it for her.

If I have to I will but that would be so much worse for us all, our baby girl.

Well that's a relief about your car being back on the road!
I have no idea about an "air leak"... never heard of it.

Some times, just like with pets lol, we get a great car.
Mine's been incredible. Almost 20y now lol. Yvette Googled the price of selling lol (HINT maybe? one that I'm ignoring lol) and she said we'd get $12 000 for it.

It was valued at $5 000 for Family Law so who knows.

I need to build the cabin before I carry on about a new car for goodness' sake lol.

It doesn't surprise me at all that there are ppl still suffering long term from the drugs inflicted upon them.

On the other hand monkey, you are a very determined young woman.
You may find answers to help you either thru traditional therapies or alternative therapies as I've done.

The major point to hold on to is that some ppl DO recover and who says you can't be one of those?

No one.

Monday should be an easy day at work. If darling chicken is still holding on then I won't go.
My boss said it's optional to go Monday so I take the opt out option lol.

Just had a huge thunderstorm and I think it busted our TV that shows the CCTV ughhhh.
I can't get it working and the CCTV just beeps when it's on.

Oh well never a dull moment.

Love EM

[monkey_magic]

Hi Em, all,

Yes, it's absolutely devastating and heartbreaking when we lose a pet/ family member. You're so loving and caring towards your chook. You do sound like you have a deep love and appreciation for living creatures. Sometimes I can't even kill a fly. I'll catch it in my hand ( swoop) and let it go outside. I don't even want to kill a cockroach. I think they are delicate living things and deserve their life. Why should I make it suffer or take it's life away.

You're damn lucky with the incredible car. I've never had an incredible car. They've all had problems and have cost me money.

I've made a huge decision. I'm joining a gym! I can still do some things physically. I'm going to just jump in and work with my limitations. I'm not seeing enough weight loss and I need to crank it up. I'm on target with my weight loss challenge but enough is enough of this sedentary lifestyle of mine.
I can stay in the house for days on the couch....I honestly think I can do better than that. Plus my weight is holding me back in life. Time to be brave and confront myself and the world. No more hiding. Warts and all.