Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Thanks for your presence blue fins!!! Feelings/ feelers always a changing....

[startingnew]

im glad your enoying yourself Monkey. a bubble bath sounds good! enjoy!

[Guest_5218]

Hi Monkey, or maybe I can call you Magic, I like that better. And its somehow fitting for you.

I just wanted to say thanks for visiting my thread the other day. As I'm going through a really tough time right now, I really appreciated your post.

Yes we have both undergone some change since we last spoke about 2 months ago. I had to go looking for your most recent thread, which I seem to have found here. I hope so anyway. Looks like there is a lot to catch up on, so I wont say much now, but will wait until I get myself up to speed with whats been happening for you recently.

Although did I read that you are working now? Thats new since we last spoke. Are you able to say what you are doing? Or perhaps I will find out if I read through this thread, which I note has a lot of posts to it now. Great to see that you are receiving the support that you need and deserve.

I will keep up with things now that I've added this thread to My Threads. I hope you have a great Sunday.

Kindest thoughts to you.

Sherie xx

[monkey_magic]

Hi Sherie,

A quick summary, I've been placed on a CTO( community treatment order) for no reason. I do not believe I have skitzophrenia or bipolar disorder which the psychiatrist thinks I have. He tried to convince me of it. I've asked all those close to me and they don't believe I have it either, some ppl laughed. So, there you go....

Im upset and angry about having to take medication I don't want to take because of the side effects. If I don't take it they can put me back into hospital. I don't like other ppl having that power over my life. Its scary because I could lose my job.

I did just get a job, also work casually. I did work just not very much. I'm also seeing someone. I try not to get to specific as I want to remain anonymous.

Thankyou for caring Sherie. ATM I'm taking these meds and living with the side effects. I'm slowed down which isn't a good thing for someone who loves keeping fit 😞

[Guest_5218]

Sure, I understand Magic. To remain anonymous is your right here on BB. So please only say what you are comfortable in saying.

Good on you for commencing a new job. And also for seeing someone! I wish you could tell us more, but know you cant. Its okay.

I totally get what you mean when you say how hard it is to feel that you do not have control over your own life. I guess I feel a little that way myself right now.

Magic, I do care. I wish things were different for you, as yes I do know how important fitness and physical activity is to you. But you need to do whatever it takes to ensure you dont get sent back to hospital. Hopefully things improve for you soon.

Sherie

[monkey_magic]

Thanks for your reply Sherie,

Yeah it's not like I have much of a choice ATM. I learnt that there's a lot that happens in life that is out of our control.

Just have to count your blessings and have other focuses to balance what's out of our control. I can think of worse things that could be my fate, so I'll count my blessings. The meds I don't want or need but my body metabolises them which is a pro, I'm not being blood tested for my levels so I can reduce them. Funny that it's part of the order to b blood tested to check my levels.

[monkey_magic]

Today I just got the best news ever from a new psychiatrist I requested. I can get out of the CTO!!!! Finally a proper psychiatrist that's knows his stuff. I need to get a second opinion from a private psychiatrist & if he/she believes I'm normal I can stop taking the meds and get out of it. Excited and happy today!!! Why couldn't they have told me this earlier!!

[Guest_5218]

Good news indeed Magic. Or perhaps I should say Magic news? Very happy for you. Let us know, wont you, once that second opinion is done.

Sherie xx

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

I just wanted to say hi and wishing you the very best with it all. You must be very happy that you get to see this new psychiatrist. You certainly sound very hopeful.

Pepper xoxo

[Simona]

Hullo Monkey Magic : ) Hope it all works out in your favour. It's good to read such a happy post from you. I was on a CTO too but the depot stopped working for me and next I was in hospital. All you can do is try and meanwhile look after yourself. Get enough sleep etc