Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Hey gorgeous gals,

Spent a lot of time with someone that has brought out my anxiety. Ppl around me ATM. I'll be OK..I'm looking happy while the tears r streaming. I just wanna b stable for work tomorrow lol...note to self; stay away from troubled souls...I take on a lot:(

[startingnew]

hey Monkey

being empathetic has that effect on alot of people, i find if im down i cant be near people at all beacuse i absorb their sadness, actually tbh i get like that in any state of mind.

can you do some self care activities that help your anxiety and to aslo pick up your mood

i have a thread called 'COPING STRATEGIES' that might help give you some ideas

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

As you and Butterfly have touched on, empathy is indeed a double edged sword. You clearly feel very deeply for those around you...

It sounds like a good idea to engage in some self care and nurture yourself so you can get through tomorrow.

Gentle thoughts,

Pepper xoxo

[monkey_magic]

Omigosh I know wat u mean about absorbing others feelings wen down. U prob feel everything as well, I know I do. ATM just listening to the birds, just want to lie in bed, so much going around in my head lol....cheers to living in the moment, cannot want for that moment lol....:)

[monkey_magic]

Good idea pepper, its overwhelming the support here- it brings out the emotions...I've been eating, listening to the birds and laying in bed, washed my hair, did a treatment and put makeup on....tears

[startingnew]

hi monkey. sounds peaceful. its raining here so we can lsiten to the sound of the rain.

everyone is exceited around me and im trying to hide! im dreading tomorrow too tbh. its suppose to be a big event and im trying to stay very low profiled.

and yes, i take in every single emotions but the ones that really get me are the pain, sadness, and those sorts of feelings. being around happy people doesnt make me happy. i really feel for those other emotions everyone tries to hide from

[monkey_magic]

Happy birthday to you for tomorrow ( pretty sure I read it was then). Hopefully u feel some sunshine for your big day, or whatever feelings r there, hopefully some come out to the surface, I rem you were numb at one stage. I so relate- there was a time I was emotionally abused- I went numb.

Really hope u make the best of your big day. Its time to b selfish now it's ' your day!!' I find ppl treat you better on your birthday. If only if was always that way hey.

[startingnew]

yeah unfortunatley its tomorrow. im all over the place at the moment. dont know what i feel. i dont really want to celebrate but mum has decided rather than yelling at me she wants to do something nice so im jsut rolling with it atm.

is this distracting you?

[monkey_magic]

I know how u feel sn I'm all over the shot as well...running a bubble bath ATM, I like distractions. Esp when ur in a bad spot I think distractions are a great thing. I'm just excited it's someone's birthday yip yip horaay, I'm so happy that you have gotten through the last few months u did it, time to celebrate!!!

[Guest_128]

Hey , I am happy to hear you are enjoying yourself today,

Dory