Should I just suck this up?

[monkey_magic]

OK, this isn't easy for me to write bcas I respect police also but this is my situation.

I aparantly unlawfully entered a friends property, that's right a friends property. He wasn't home and I wasn't believed. Anyhow I was put in a mental institution. I preferred the hospital choice over the police station choice thinking I'll be in there for a couple weeks.

3 months later I came out overmedicated feeling like shite...misdiagnosed with a mental illness as a " safety net" seriously!!!!

3 months of my life where I couldn't work, and live my normal life. Inclosed in a small space, going crazy.

Should I just " suck this up". ?

[monkey_magic]

Hey pepper,

You made my night with all that you wrote. I've learnt to be greatful & appreciative.

I used to feel the same way, a little closed off, on an island, reaching for greater hights in my mind delluding myself until I met ppl similar to me. For a while in life I was in my grief and alone. Like Croix says his life worked out. My life is working out too & have faith girl because yours will as well.

As long as you're open to it ppl will come to you and if you accept life will be more full. I think you're doing great as it is anyhow. You sure know how to write, listen to your gut & instincts,are intelligent, have experienced love....the world is waiting...

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Your post made me smile from ear to ear. Thank you so much for your wonderful words and I'm glad my post made your night 🙂

Wow, you have certainly come a long way. I know you have been through a lot- battle scars. Then again, the brightest stars are often the ones who have hurt the most in the past.

So keep on shining 🙂

Kind thoughts,

Pepper xo

[monkey_magic]

Aw thankyou,

Getting through those battle scars does make u a strong, tough cookie, it has for me anyhow. I also smiled from ear to ear.

Applied for another job today, I think I'm ready to fully get back in. Have been working casually for a while but I'm doing much better now.

Oh, I just got an interview for tomorrow!

[Peppermintbach]

Hi monkey_magic,

Look at you...you sound so motivated. It's wonderful to witness 🙂

Congratulations on scoring the interview!

I wish you all the very best tomorrow. Cheering you on from the cyber sidelines.

Kind thoughts,

Pepper xo

[monkey_magic]

To everyone,

Ive been compliant with meds because I'm on that order. Since I'm not being bloodtested to check levels I am now being non- compliant. They have stripped me of my power to choose what I put in my body but now im doing it my way. If I know my levels r being tested I'll take meds beforehand so it shows in my system.

My life, my rights, who gives others the right to tell me what I can put in my body- nobody but me, the way it should be 🙂 now can they stop unsettling me. Can those ppl back off & stop making me unsettled by making me compliant. It's not right.

[Croix]

Dear MM~

I've been looking around but have not seen much of you and wondered if you were away or I'd simply been looking in the wrong places.

Well, it looks like you are back and doing things your way - what a change 🙂

A couple of weeks ago you said you'd scored an interview for a full-time job, do you mind if I ask how it went?

I'm pleased to see you again

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Heeelllooooo Mr Croix!!!

I' be been around often, mainly on one thread, I'm sure in time you'll find me. Again, I love what u said but I risk going back into hospital if they find out ( I hope my thoughts are an exaggeration) but once on this order it's their way or the highway so I'm being sneaky sneaky. I don't belong on the order or in hospital, many ppl are in agreeance. I'm a normal woman going through normal things. Even if I did have bipolar which has been said I'd rather self manage that manage with meds. That's my personal journey and views. I completey understand if others want to take meds though. I'm too much of a sporty person & don't want that hindrance of side effects, I really don't like them.

Its uncomfortable when people think they have power over you or think their opinion has more value then your own. I am owning the situation in my own way, still have the see the case worker, take the injection, & see the psychiatrist even though I dont want to( it's the oral meds ive stopped).It's not because I'm in denial it's because I don't need to & don't like their power play...

Their opinions & power play getting in my way!

I didn't get the job ( after making it to the 3rd stage) & I'm fine about it as there will be other opportunities ( prob didn't help that my train didn't come & I got lost & was 45 mins late to the interview).

Love to you Mr Croix, hope your day is great !!!

[Croix]

Dear MM~

Well if I've missed you I guess I better get some spectacles (a walrus in glasses?) and look harder. Anyway I'm glad you are OK, I was a little worried you'd been away in less than ideal circumstances.

Yes the power issue is a pretty confronting one, particularly if you don't really have faith the person in control has the time, knowledge or sympathy needed to treat one as an individual and act in a competent manner. It's too big a thing to have it treated casually.

I'm afraid being 3/4 of an hour late is not guaranteed to impress, whatever the reason. Do you still have part time work?

How about the gym?

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Hi Croix,

Yeah I still work casually & go to the gym. I think I got lucky with you, your responses r intelligent & make sense & have a sense of peace.

Im supposed to get the injection today 😞 I just don't get it at all 😞

I have to stay up though, no point in letting others bring me down even though ppl can affect your mood like I read from one of your posts.I see you around a lot lol...your support is invaluable 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Morning Croix & all,

To make it easier you'll find me writing in the relationship breakup thread still in the relationship section ( has reached 103 posts). It's all about loss & love. Or if its not there perhaps its been moved to long support over the journey but currently still in relationship.

Ive also been around the place.

Not only would spectacles make a walrus see better, he would also look very sophisticated & smart lol 😉