relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

It’s me again

okay xx lovely

Were you watching today with that minds eye .. around 11.30 -12.00 ??

I was near a beach today ..I’m using my phone .. I’m on the couch ..

just had a cup of tea .. no desert tonight ..

I am a bit overwhelmed monkey ..

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , can you tell me another story ..

[monkey_magic]

I'm overwhelmed too...if I tell u a story it will be the worst story...u talk..I'll listen

[awrinkle_in_time]

Are you okay ...

I will talk ..love too

[awrinkle_in_time]

I went and jumped in the pool before ...very cold was out again in about 3 seconds ... are you smiling

some neighbours were singing tonight ....they weren't to bad ...no idea of the song ...

it was quite strange to hear someone singing while i was cooking dinner ...

you might say yuck ...but i had tofu and veg for tea ...it was a flavoured tofu ...was pretty nice ..i find it easy to eat ..and a bit of rice .. you are impressed i can cook rice hey .... I'm pretty good in the kitchen ...poached eggs , coffee cups of tea ... of course tofu ...pizza ... salmon ...any thing in the microwave ...and just recently i learnt how to cook a heart ...smiling ... will send and continue

[awrinkle_in_time]

Im sending you heaps of cuddles ...

now where was i ...Cooking ...Can make rice crackers with tomato with salt and pepper ...they are nice with a coffee ...

the pizza the other night have salami , pepperoni , artichoke , sun dried tomatoes , mushrooms , capsicum , olives and cheese ...( you love cheese so do i ) ...ohh thats right i put all that stuff on a pitta bread or Lebanese bread ...cooked in the oven for a few minutes ....until all browned up ....cut and served ...to myself ...ohh i think you had a piece from memory ...and my son had some as well ...3 burnt chins that night ...ha ha ...

will continue

[awrinkle_in_time]

i need to clean my room ...stuff everywhere ...i will do that over the weekend ...

So relaxed going up in the plane ....wow your brave ...i think i would be throwing up out the window ...or on the pilot ...ha ha ... no i would be alright if i had a friend with me ... the free fall would be good ....maybe ...it would be a relief when the parachute opened ...go on a real nice day ...how would you go if it was real windy ...being silly ...

you could take a go pro ..i haven't got one ... use your phone ...just don't drop it ... might do it one day ...

its Friday tomorrow ... sometimes i have a nap on Sunday afternoons ... i seem to only sleep a couple of hours ..wish it was longer ...i am helping my friend finish off a room he is building down stairs in hid house ...i haven't got much to do it will only take a few hours ....he helped me with stuff at my place ...he makes cupboards ...and he has re done my whole unit ... we are good mates ...

xxx will continue xxx being a little silly

[monkey_magic]

Hi simon,

I'm writing some of my story on my thread should I suck it up...ur welc to read there if u want...it's not a good story though

[awrinkle_in_time]

well i better get some sleep ...Lovely ...

I hope all is good your end ...hope you got a little laugh ...

sweet dreams ... swimming with the dolphins ...you liked that ...the beautiful beach walks ... the sound of the waves the smell of the ocean ... the sand in your toes ... the sun on you body ... floating in the water ...playing in the waves ...

Good Night .

xxx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Morning ,

Coffee turned out nice this morning ....

Left yours on the bench for you ...Enjoy ...

working from home for a few hrs then will do some stuff out and about ...

Hope the day is kind to you ..Lovely ...

XXOOOOOOOOO

few hugs there for ya ...

Just remembered cyber hugs are endless ....million of them ....take all you need ...and then some more

Supporting you today !!!!