relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

House rules is a renovation show.

I eat papaya too, and paw paw & just recently tried a custard apple.

You're energetic hey- comes across in your writing.

Enjoy your day Mr, I hope it's a good one 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello Missy ,

I went into work early and got my stuff done ....have come home and made a cup of tea and having a sit on the couch ... its lovely ...I am a bit energetic.... some times i just need to slow up a bit ...smile smile ...

House rules ...was it good ...did you get any tips ...they do all the modern stuff in building hey ...i dont watch much tv just the news stuff ..and movies ... i hate the adds talking at me ... i love the ABC ... it has some good shows on ...Going to have a nice rest this afternoon .... Enjoy your day ...hey it would be good to know your name , but you would have to kill me once i found out ...i understand ... Later Mate , ps have you got the wig on today ... 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Giggles; no I don't have the wig on today sshhhh ppl think it's my real hair. That's awesome work is done for the day. I'm not werking today ( like this spelling). Yeah house rules is pretty modern, there's a bit of drama in the show too- I was really sucked into it- loved watching the house transformations.

You know I like a lot of the same things u do- shame we can't have a coffee and swap names 😉

I'm into the outdoors- hiking, beach like u- would be fun to come along. Prob won't wear my wig though. I also enjoy your stories- woman you've dated etc...your friend with the 4 girlfriends. You sound like an all round positive guy- a woman will drop into your lap one day- a good, compatible one this time hey...just dump the baggage and all will work out. Lots of energetic, good- looking, great personalities, and active adventurous ones out your way. If u want one that is. Go get em tiger- when ur ready...

I've been single for some time now. Last guy I was seeing projected issues- not having it. He had a good heart, was loud, courageous, funny, caring and out there. It's a shame how small things just ruin it. If I stayed with him it would have gotten worse. Staying single keeps u away from all that stress and hurt- it's pretty good actually. I'm free as a bird. I can always just do me- go wherever, do whatever, work as much as I want. I'm 36 soon, with no kids. I kinda like it- I have so much freedom. One day I might end up with a guy with kids- who knows, just going to live in the moment though. I've been with guys much younger and much older than me. I've had my closeness and experiences...I think single suits me right now. Funny how u say things like that then someone comes along. I'll just flow with fate...

Found some stuff to write energetic couch potato he he.. 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , yes it is a shame ...

Single is good ...well ..not sure about that ....don't miss the drama ...and yes i like to do my own thing ...

we humans all want the same thing and thats to love and be loved and have a witness to our lives .... some people have it others don't..flowing with fate is good i agree ...just be your self ... and you will run into opportunities everywhere ....

I had an easy day ...rested a bit .. did computer work from home ...went out to a job up near Noosa about 2.30 ...had soup for dinner ..was good ... and a little garlic bread ...pitta bread ...home made ...yum ... on the couch again ...heater on ...making me sleepy ... will have to re read your last post a few times ...i like the way you write ...

Going to bed early tonight ... have been a little confused today ...i think it cause im tired ...recon ill dream a lot tonight ...whats ya watching tonight ?? ...

🙂

[monkey_magic]

Yeah I like that; "we humans all want the same thing and that's to love and b loved and have a witness to our lives". I think u r spot on.

And

"Just be yourself and you will run into opportunities everywhere".

I think you could be a spiritual guru 🙂

I also love the way you write- I have a feeling u have so much in that brain of yours.

It's enlightening knowing you- how's that.

I'm on the couch too.Waiting for oz lotto results. I...am playing too much lotto.

Just browsing the net tonight. A show is on the TV but I'm not paying much attention. I'm paying attention to you though; feeling love towards you...I might as well spread it...can u ...catch....the ball of love...hope it's felt.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Monkey thats lovely .... Felt very much so ... it knocked me over ... dots again

I just went out to a job ...home again now ...just jumped into bed with a sparkling water ..

Any luck in the lotto ? ...I heard on the news that one person was the winner in Vic last night ...I think i got that right ...Lots of coin for him ....his son had died and he was using the money towards raising his sons children ...He was the Grand parent ... Thats nice hey ...

Your words make me feel as well ...i laugh a lot at what you right ..your funny ...random stuff ... your just a lovely person Monkey ...i can tell ... I'm enlightened also ..I mean that ...we are friends and we talk out our days and stuff thats on our minds ...i trust you ...i tell you stuff ...well tell everyone on the internet ...ha ha ...that has helped me get stronger ... im grateful to you for that ....thats why i say thank you all the time xxoo

There is this Buddhist temple not far from where i live ...its out in the bush a bit ...I got called there one night , the place was in darkness they had no power ...its late at night around midnight ....i am walking around this place trying to find out where the power came into the property ...I went to the main hall and there were lots of people there ...i went in and asked if someone could show me the meter box , switchboard ...they all just looked at me ...no one was talking ....it was a silent retreat ....and no one was allowed to talk ...so i went to my truck and got a pen and paper and wrote my questions down ...and gave it to them , they then showed me around ... i stayed for dinner ...it was real nice food ...no one talked ....i was there for hours ... I think that night i became a Guru , not sure what type of Guru ...never the less a Guru ....love the word Guru ... are you smiling ... hope you are ...Better sleep now ... Lovely ... Hope you got the love right back to ya ... 2 flat whites please ... ill have a coffee for ya tomorrow ... no sugar ? ... Sleep well xx

[monkey_magic]

Ha,ha, surely someone could have spoken lol...you were there to do a job for them, how funny. And smart of you to go back and write down your qtns. I would have been laughing at them 🙂

I'll have 2 coffees tomorrow too, with no sugar. I rem u saying sugar was bad for you. ( I listen). I'll also have two alcoholic drinks ( full of sugar) to celebrate you getting stronger and moving forward from the past. Well I hope so. It's been really good hearing about other parts of your life too. Sounds like you're moving forward to me. Yay 🙂

I'm really happy for you. Always feel free to express yourself- get those feelings out and exposed to be free...

Well if you're thanking me, I'm thanking you too- I've felt lifted, you're also random and you spark my interest. There's been coincidences too. For eg you'll be having the same dinner as me- ( chicken curry)...and we have a lot of common interests. It's been fun and interesting. Oh...and you have a nice smile haha..I remember.

So light brown hair with a nice smile...you enjoy surfing, the gym, hiking, u work, u have mates, yep she ( the ex) is missing out for sure. I hope ur strong enough to know this now....BTW how are you going with all that? Is the wound healing? Is it still there? I really hope ur moving past it. And you will be victorious! It feels so good on the other side or flip side as I've heard u say.( I felt high after fulfilling my past grief journey & grew spiritually).

I'm glad u trust- it's a good quality 🙂 but of course always keep those smarts...

I Iike how in previous posts you've used the word slow...

Slow and steady wins the race I heard...

Watching very interesting shows on TV. About dangers of internet dating, and ppls lives- the scarys that can happen. Reminded me to stay away from a lot of humans haha...well, that's what I do.I'm thankful I'm around better ones now too.

Been watching a lot of Russell Brand on YouTube- love the guy and his message and his gift...he's so out there.

NightyNight from MonkeyMagic 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hey MM

How was your day ... It was raining up on the coast ...Coffee was nice ,thanks ... how was yours ?

Yours had a double shot ... sometimes i have low fat milk ..not always ...

Still have the odd memory ..stopped the tears .. ill never forget her ....

The baggage seems to be going ...i can see more now ..is it being mindful ...the buzz word at the moment .... Trying to be aware of the ego ...and the role it wants to play ... I can see in myself at times the ego loosing control and the fear it brings ... interesting ...as you would say .... Did you have a little sweet something with your coffee ...i love apple crumble ...or an apple slice ...

so im working on the ego with the shrink lady ... mentioned a few things to her on my last visit ...i didn't explain myself as i would have liked but have been thinking about it ....the empty space brings the answers .... so i will bring it up im the next appointment ... will tell you all ..

Had spag bog tonight my son made it ...lots of parmesan cheese ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

the last message just sent while i was writing ....strange

Dating sites... i have been on a few ...like looking at the faces ...Might stick to the plan and let fate take its path ...trying to be the person that brings what i want in my life ...Guru talking now ... ha ha ...

It would be nice to sit and have a coffee and a bit of apple slice with you ..

you could come skiing with me ...my buddy wont come he is to busy with the 4 girls ...

away for 3 weeks leave mid Feb 19 ....meet ya at Syd Airport ...ill be the one with brown hair and the big smile ... ill spot you okay .... ( the wig ) ... On a more serious note my friend ...i hurt my shoulder and i have to do all these exercises to get it back working okay again ... probably over did it tonight ... its a bit painful right now ... it will be back to perfect ...soon ...

Russell Brand is good have you seen his movie he made ...i like how he is out for the under dog ...he doesn't hold back ... he's right into TM ....i did TM lots while i was going through the divorce ...You Tube has everything ....

You have an easy week you said ...hope you had a nice day and all went well ..i might go a power ball quick pick and take the extra power ball ...am i talking your language babe ... that wont cost much and i recon there will be 2 winners ...one from Qld and the other from a state im not sure of ... ( thats you ) ... the prize will be millions ...

Time for a shower and bed ... love the cold nights ... might find a new sleepy music ... look at me go ... outrageous

Night Friend ... iPhone or Samsung ?

xx

[monkey_magic]

Heya,

Letting go of the ego; so you're aiming to live spiritually perhaps. I let go of my ego a long time ago, it can rear again though.

TM( transition meditation) would be a spiritual journey. Rooting for the underdog- I'm all for that too. I've watched a lot of him on YouTube but I don't think I've seen the movie.

I won a small prize on oz lotto, small prizes sat and have 250 rows in for tonights lotto. I'm not promoting it though lol but it excites me. I keep trying to guess the numbers 250 times!!! Pb with the balls kinda pricey if u choose a lot of rows. I hope u win too- very very slim chance though to win big!! Always a chance though. I'll keep guessing until I win I reckon. Anxious about the results for tonight- coming soon.

Apple crumble or pies r tasty. Just had coffee...light milk too..no alcohol though, but when I do I'll cheers for you- celebrate how far you've come. Must have been a deep love.

Ski trip sounds good lol 😉 u won't know it's a wig though;-) Hope the shoulder gets better, hope the kids r well. Samsung and iPhone haha..I'm not the best person to ask...you'll have to choose that one.

Will let u know how my day is after the lotto results; coming soon...

U go to bed early dad haha...U must have worked hard.

Love the cooler weather...and yeah great for bed. Watching house rules tonight again. Spag and parmi- I had roast pork and veg oinc oinc...don't love pork lol, twas OK. Aaahhhh I have a good feeling about the results..will my feeling deceive me- probably lol..I'm getting very excited- lots of rows I have...

Did u have all those dreams the other night...I have lots of dreams...

Chat again- look after yourself guru xx