relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hey Monkey , hows the week going ... are you getting lots of study done ...

I think you should take a well earned rest from the books and write to me ... 🙂 🙂 ( When you can )

[monkey_magic]

Well hello there man with the lovely smile,

Yep u guessed it, I've been pretty busy- stressed after work today , going to watch home & away.

So, you need woman training? Probably not though I'm sure you know what to say & do lol...you've been in a marriage- plenty of training there. Perhaps u need to brush up, polish those skills lol, no....just be the man you are.

Im entering lotto with my mum every week now....we go halves.

Yeah I like that it's colder now 🙂

Good going with the gym...excellent work...love it. Hugs back.. Will write more another time tired brain 😞

[awrinkle_in_time]

Enjoy home and away ...

Rest that beautiful mind ....I have a lotto ticket on the fridge ...it was for the 20 million last week ...i might be rich monkey ... i will check it tomorrow ....I hope you win next week ...you know the odds are not good ... but you have to be in it to win it as they say ...Do you think i just be my nice self and the ladies will come from everywhere ...i dont want crazy ...just kidding .... we are all crazy ....just not violent ...thats not to much to ask for is it .... enjoy you feet up and the soaps ... Hey are you excited about the big royal wedding ....i probably wont watch it ....are you smiling .... I had a good day monkey ... Good Night

[monkey_magic]

Hello again,

I'm smiling 🙂 I have a small business venture I've been working on for the last 3 mnths- very exciting. I have a lot done now, just can't wait for the next step & for some money to come in.

Everybody wants to win the lotto!! We didn't come close today, hope u have better luck.

Yeah just be you!! So you're a little cray cray you say...I used to get called crazy a lot. Used to be a full on person...so not like that today.

I'm not one to go crazy about the royal wedding and I'm not even excited... If I watch it I do, if I don't I don't. I think Megan is beautiful though. Naturally beautiful and I think they will last.

I'm more excited about what I'm doing at the moment...been slowly working on it...my minds been open more too, discovering other sides to life.

Hope u have a restful sleep and good day at work tomorrow 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Your a lovely lady i get so much from your words thanks !!

I woke in the night ...went to the shrink lady today / yesterday .....being the full on person ...i am like that a little is it my ego trying to get a turn all the time ... ...I have this thing that comes up in me every now and again ...i wont go into it ...to hard to explain .... its a situation where i lose my focus ....its like i fear something ...i shut down ....when i say i shut down i lose my ability to see clearly ...i dont understand what it is ....and why i do it ....and it upsets my confidence ....i need to find out what it is ...i need to be free of it ...

Thats exciting your venture im sure it will do real well ...i know you will ... Good on Ya for getting in and having a go

well done ...My support 8million percent ...plus 120 .... Your mind is open letting the right answers in seeing the right way ...seeing the truth ...

Yes she is beautiful they both look happy ...

You also have a good day ...Lovely ...Going to sleep now its so late ...

[monkey_magic]

Hello!

What your describing sounds like an emotional stress reaction. I find when I'm stressed I shut down- could that be it? Hope u find the answers you are seeking.

And I did end up watching the royal wedding plus a movie about them beforehand. Would have spent about 4 or 5 hrs watching them lol. I'm at home typing out a lot of stuff and took a break from that- and....I'm still typing. Can't wait to get my webpage up and running. Have to get my car serviced too....why oh why does money go so fast- I want a holiday....

Wow u r giving me a lot of percent of support- I'll hold onto that appreciate it. If this business does well I will b able to holiday- yay...

I'm guessing your with your kids/ doing housework today? Im werking on my bis (working & business) but felt like spelling it another way...

Hope its all good in your hood. If not you've got BB to check into...

Oudios Omego x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello ...I felt like spelling it another way ....I got a smile from that ....

So you had a binge on the Royal Wedding ... How privileged are they ... what an event .... Glad you enjoyed it ...

Im investigating the Emotional stress stuff ...you might be right ...Thanks Mate ...

Got all the house work sorted ...was a productive day .... went to bed early ...had a ripper sleep ...

going into the office today .... will take it slow ...no world records required .... The Hoods good ...

Have a good week !! ...get the Bizz thing up and running .... Finish that off this week ....and then the holiday cash will start rolling in ....all as planned ...

Oudios Omego xo

[monkey_magic]

Howdy Mr,

Hows life?

I've just entered all these different lotto draws. First time for everything.

Tomorrow I'm driving to the beach and am going to do a long walk.

Bizz thing will take a while to get up and running. Still perfecting my content...can't wait for when I do though. I'm scared at the same time. Don't want it to b a flop.

If I win some lotto money will be over the moon...

Cherio omego 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya ...

Lifes okay ... work and stuff ....doing my exercises when i get home ...feel good for that ..

your long walk sounds nice, enjoy ..hope its a perfect day for you ..( weather i mean ) .. the beach brings it all back to balance ...would you have a swim ... a quick jump in ... your bizz will go okay ...good on you for having a go ..a little scared is okay ...that will keep you on your toes ....had some fish for tea tonight...was soooo good ...not much to report from my place ... be strong ... x

Au revoir

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello ...I woke early sat morning and thought id say Hi ..

Have a big day at work lots of jobs to do ...I have an apprentice with me so we will have a good day ...it will go quick ...I poured down rain last night ...Crazy it was ...its stopped now ... hopefully it will be a nice day ...its a little windy ...My week went well i had a day in Maleny in the hinterland it was lovely it's a hippy town ...its quite and the people are easy going ....and they make nice coffee ... there are a few nice cafes will have to go for breaky one morning ....Im looking into getting a little house this year ... would be nice to have a bit more room ...another bedroom and a little yard ...the kids want to get a dog ...when i say kids my son is 21 and my daughter is 18 ... they both work and come and go as they please its nice ... their mum has moved away ...the talk to her on the phone ...but she lives in another state ...i recon thats a good thing ....in a nice away ... anyway a small house ...going to the bank on tuesday to chat about the plan ....the numbers and all that stuff ....did i sound like a bizz dude with all that lingo ... it will work out ...just finding the right place later in the year will be fun ...thats why i work the weekends ...a little extra for the plan ....Stan .... I went and had my ears candled the other day ...have never done that it was awesome ...anyway the guy who was ding it asked if i was married and i told him that i have divorced and he tell me that his family has a lady friend that wants to meet a nice man ...i ears pricked up while he had a burning candle in it ...ha ha ...anyway she sounded nice from what he said ... i might investigate some more ....i could meet her in a public place for coffee and have a chat .... no pressure ... i will probably chicken out and go to work instead ... i will keep you posted ...better get in the shower and get ready for the day ...Hope your weekend is a Ripper ... xo