relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

Heya!

Ear candling. That's something I've seen and thought about doing but have never actually done, can u hear better?

Lucky you having a potential date. If u did go I'm all ears.

Ive been buying so many different lotto entries and trying my luck. I had a small win but I'm still out of pocket. Have more entries though. Risking my money playing lotto is fun for me. I've picked 100 numbers for Wednesdays draw lol...am I a sucker or what....the odds r totally against me.

Sitting in front of the computer doing an assignment. This one is hard. It's no fun. But...this is what I have to do to change careers.

Oh, congrats on getting the ball rolling with ur new home. Exciting. You've worked for it and definitely deserve it. Don't work too hard though.

🙂

[monkey_magic]

Heya!!

Had to tell u the great news...I meant to say I played 100 rows of lotto not numbers & guess what?! Only 1 number off!!! So I'm a division 3 winner, over $500.... I'm feeling high...but then down because I didn't win div 1... Still high though 🙂 I'm new to this so am very happy...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya ....Thats great news good for you ...A bit of fun and a win .... Good for you and I'm glad your happy ... didn't go on the date but still might ask the guy to pass on my number on .. maybe ... i like my own time ...never happy us men ...love the all ears pun ... Hey loveable monkey ....im having the weekend and Monday off work ... wwhhooo ... cant wait to do ...to do...well just not work .... the weather is beautiful ....i might take the surf board to Noosa on Monday...the waves up there are perfect ...and they make nice coffee ...and ice cream ...

How did you go with your assignment ...you said it was a hard one ...it will be worth it when you get a good pass or 100% ...keep up the good work ... the ball is rolling with the house a bit more work to do ...i have a goal set so something to work towards ... slow and steady wins the race a friend once told me ... my ears feel great can hear heaps of stuff ....even more stuff than i could hear before ....im being silly now ...hope all is good your end ... all is good hear...full moon last night ... was so big in the sky .... it was crazy mate ... xxoo

[awrinkle_in_time]

one number off thats so close !!

[awrinkle_in_time]

🙂 🙂 🙂 ....

[awrinkle_in_time]

i love you monkey

[awrinkle_in_time]

Sorry Monkey ...had a moment 🙂 ...to many beers had a night out with some boys from work ...Was fun ..Enjoy your weekend hope you win Lotto !!!

[monkey_magic]

Winning lotto is the dream 🙂 Days off lucky you...they're the best. Drinking brings out a persons true feelings...haha just kidding.

I bought myself some hair, looks so good. So now I walk around rocking my wig...but you wouldn't know....been looking glam...thankyou lotto win! 🙂 and yes I've entered tonights draw...exciting for me 🙂

Back to my favourite spot Noosa I see...enjoy...I can just see you out there on your surfboard. I'm picturing a brunette? And I'm wondering whether your surfing on the other side where the nudist beach is...lol...my Noosa memories r coming back. And I rem the ice- cream/ gelato places there.

Just came back from some winter clothes shopping...and ppl can't believe I walk around in a tank top when its cold...i must b hot blooded...prefer it when its cooler...

My most exciting thing going in my life at the moment is these lotto draws...just imagining that win is exilerating.

Enjoy your days off!!

[awrinkle_in_time]

Rockin the wig .... thats great... you made me smile ...I bet it look awesome ...

Noosa is so nice , I don't quite go as far as the nude beach ....Tea tree i think the surf spot is called ...

Its getting cold hear as well, had the heater on the other night ...it gets quite cool when the sun goes down ...I like the change ..I have a thermal i wear its so nice keeps you warm as toast ...and you don't have to have heaps of clothes on ...The Lotto thoughts ....Waking up and having enough money to do what ever you want ...it would be good to have your own chef in the house ...cooking unreal meals every day ...healthy of course ....a trainer to keep you fit ...you could get a room full of wigs ...about 300 of them ...you could write wig room on the door ...a room full of shoes ...the shoe room ...a movie theatre in the house ...a massage every day ....a house cleaner ....you could just go on for ever ...thinking of stuff ...

Yep i have light brown hair ... You must be hot blooded ....be careful you don't get sick ... i just got myself a nice black denim jacket ....its pretty warm ...looks cool man ...Better go and have some dinner .....The best of luck with the Lotto tonight ...i will listen out for a scream .....I will enjoy the time off thank you x

[monkey_magic]

You are too funny. Made me laugh out loud with the wig room 🙂 I won 6 times. Only in the last two divisions and I pretty much broke even. Better luck next time.

So if you won the lotto I reckon you'ld live like a celebrity by the sounds of your description haha.

Your jacket sounds pretty cool. I bought two today myself.

Watching comedy with my mum ATM pretty funny...

Doing my lotto numbers for Monday... 🙂 prob won't play as many rows this time- so, she says...

I'm warm as toast myself right now in my weather proof jacket.

I used to go to that beach..on the other side...will never forget it and I'd go again & again & again..

Have a great next couple days off! 🙂