relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello ..I bought a new toaster and kettle or jug ....they are trendy as ..

I had a nice couple of days did some stuff and just not working was good ... my phone started ringing it head of this morning and i turned it off was all work stuff ...will catch it up tomorrow ...

Have been buying the wollies home brand sparkling mineral water ....( just thought you would like to know ) anyway its so good i really enjoy it and it helps me keep up my water intake ... i think celebrities drink it when there out at functions ....promotions ...stuff like that ... am cooking up some chicken curry for dinner ...will have it with rice ..

Might head back to the gym this week ...have had some time out just doin a few things at home in the lounge ...was a bit chesty ...feeling good now so will get back into the rower and a bit of the leg press ... and other stuff keep the body strong ...

Noosa was nice still the same ... water is quite warm ...i had a wet suit on ....just a perfect place to chill ...

Cleaned all my room out Saturday ...and did the house work .. had a air conditioner a portable one that was lent to me by a person i used to see ...she said once we should sell it and put the money towards travelling ...anyway i took it to life line ....along with the old toaster and jug ...got rid of all the things that were hanging around of hers ...felt sad a little but i did pull out of it ...the shrink lady must be working ...dont want to feel sorry for myself ...its a good move on thing ....I had stuff in my car of hers ...that went as well ... Its quite clear i have to stand on my 2 feet.... and i did all that and felt strong ... good for me .... hey better go chicken is smokin in the pan ...Hope your weekend was good nice you watched a movie with your mum and had a laugh ... quality time ... hope work or study or Biz stuff is good to you ... Have a great night x

[monkey_magic]

Lol, I also had chicken curry for dinner. Mum made it.

Out with the old, in with the new...sounds like a new chapter..

Love how u take care of yourself with surfing/ swimming, the gym...- good quality lifestyle.

I did a huge internet grocery shop so trying all these different things today. Going to have four cheeses and mushroom stuffed chicken- yum. Also having boysenberry icecream, coconut yogurt, swiss chocolate...I bought a whole variety of stuff.

Didn't win on the lotto this time around. Played 100 rows.

Been having some time off myself, chill time.

You're pretty dedicated cleaning your room out and continuously doing housework. You sound like a man on a mission!

Until next time xoxox

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Morning ..

Made a coffee and 2 pieces of toast and got back into bed this morning ..sort of like I'm on holidays ...

Had a dinner out last night i wore my bienne ( not sure if thats the right spelling ) it was nice... i am real hungry at night ...so i hooked in and at the kids left overs ...must be a winter thing ....

I have a busy day ...work is going off ...lots to do which is good ...it will be Friday before we know it ...

How was the chicken with mushrooms and 4 cheeses ...thats funny ...its like you in a restaurant .... you got some good stuff online ...do they deliver to your house ?? its good soup weather ....lots of work cutting up the veggies ...

i might buy the tin stuff ...home made is better i know but ...

So your having some chill out time thats good ...stay strong and look after yourself ... do the things that make you strong ...

So no lotto wins yet ...Glad your having fun with it ...and you got the wig from a win ... i luv you ...

Yes have to have the unit clean and tidy ...got rid of lot of stuff from the past ...

have a great day xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello Monkey , hope your well , just saying Hi... Got the heater on in Queensland ...

I put a bet on Jeff Horn to win the boxing fight tomorrow ...good odds ...

Have a nice night friend x

[monkey_magic]

Winter sure does make u eat more. I think you'll look great in a beenie 😉 plus the added warmth is a bonus.

Hope u won some cash from your bet. I've only had little wins and am out of pocket recently from different Lottos. The $50mil powerball was won, u might have heard. I would b the happiest woman alive!!! Would love to be in a financial position to change other ppls lives too!

Got my real hair coloured and trimmed at the hairdresser- looks a lot better but I'll still be rocking my wig as it's longer and thicker than my natural hair.

The chicken and four cheeses was nice- the cheese ouzed out of it and was rich. And Woolworths home delivered. Still have lots of yummy food in the house. Ordered Chinese and then pizza on another day as well...combination chaw ming...is wat I usually get but had a seafood laska soup by the beach the other day...we spend a lot on food...but if I'm ever a lotto winner- who cares 🙂

• The caravans have been out on the rd- ppl going away for the long weekend. I worked yday..& deciding wat to do today. Do u have any long weekend plans? A car was close to hitting me the other day; very close I had to swerve to the other side of the rd..my heart was pumping hard...got to admit I liked the adrenaline.
• So works busy for you, my works pretty chill, just mentally draining a bit from reading off a computer screen.
• My pH is playing up at the moment, don't mind the dots, it won't turn off.
• A heater on in qld sounded pretty funny...
• I'm going to head out now so hope u have a lovely day & try not to give in to those mental/ emotional feelings if u have them. All is well & I'm sure it will all work out 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello ... I just ate a bowl of spaghetti bog and burnt my mouth lips and chin ...i was so hungry and i had it go to long in the M/wave ... nothing serious it was just real real hot ...it was so yummy had parmesan cheese all over it ...probably a little to much ...and a glass of sparkling celebrity water ...Have been on call all weekend and have been so busy ... its just cray cray ..man .. am having an early night tonight ...have been good with mental stuff ...touch wood it lasts a bit longer ...

Im glad you were NOT hit by the car ... thats mental ...the other driver was probably on the phone ...

I bet your hair looks nice ..good for you, hope you love it .... Rockin the wig babe ... did you get a blonde colour ....just a guess ... ???

The Queens birthday has been moved in QLD .....but i still have a long weekend its Nambour show day Friday and my RDO on Monday ....i recon ill take the 4 days off ...wwhhooo ....cant wait ....no plans just chilling ...and eating ...

ill think of something to do ...no planning just dream it up as i go thats how i roll sometimes ...

Reading the computer screen ...put a picture of a nice beach on top of the screen and take a glance at it every now and again ... and then give yourself a big smile ...

work is boring sometimes ...its a bit of the life stuff .....

• i like the dots ...
• look at me go ...worked it out ...
• did you have a good day ... your a kind person monkey ....you write nice words ... good things will always come to you ... cant turn off the dots now ....
• another one ... going to put on the sleepy music now and drift off into space for 7 or so hrs ...
• i had a good day ....i feel full of love ... just my own nice thoughts ...
• Have a nice sleep and busy day tomorrow ...
• Good Night x ...

[monkey_magic]

I had lots of laughs through your post...yum Parmesan cheese, no such thing as too much. So, you got the hang of the dots...::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: just for you some other dots, cas I heard u like them.

You are sounding so good....

Yes, I'm a blonde.

Picked some numbers for oz lotto but haven't bought the ticket yet- I do it online...using my senses and seeing if I can tap into the numbers.. Seeing if I have a feel for them... Hhhmmmm...

Just finished a home made pizza..and I put loads of topping on...just how I like it.

Hope u have a great rest of the week and laugh lots. Xox

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Just watched 4corners on Iview from Monday night ...its a 3 part series on Trump and the Russians ...Im enjoying it ... Just about to sleep ...i know its early but im tired and a big sleep will be nice ...anyway thought i would check in to BB and there you were ...Telling me you are making pizza ...I love kalamata olives ...and just a little anchovy ...I bet you made a nice one ....Hope you didn't burn your chin on the hot cheese ... Garlic ?

Pizza is the best ...A beer goes nice with pizza ...

So your a good lookin blonde ...

1. The tapping into the numbers is cool ...
2. using your senses ....also cool
3. Perfect ....

my lucky number is 1 .....you could use it if you wanted ...ha ha ...

thanks for all those dots ... loved it ....you make me smile as well ....just love the way you write ... I really enjoy the writing to each other ...Thank you ...it has helped me so so so much ...you also sound good ...and that makes me happy

you also have a great rest of the week ...

i will be sure to get lots of laughs in xoxo

au revoir

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Miss Monkey

Did you like the numbers .... i can show you how to do that if you like ... im sure you know ... woke up in the middle of the night ...made a cup of tea ...went to the shrink lady today ...well yesterday ... was good ...

ive been looking at units ...a 3 bedroom one ....the one i have is 2 bed and my daughter has moved in with me in the last 3 months ...so 3 of us in the 2 bed unit is okay but not for ever ... my sone has a bed sort of off the lounge room ....he is more than happy ...it would be good to get a place with a beedroom each ....the reason my daughter moved in was because my EX Wife moved back to Victoria ...my daughter used to live with her ....making sense ..??....she is back and forth from her boyfriends place ..she is 18 ... my son is 21 ... its all good just looking at his unit which is in a nice spot ...has the 3rd bedroom and a little yard ...and the yard opens onto parkland ... i went through it today with the agent ..she was funny ...she wore a real short dress and had her boobs almost out ...my daughter nudged me in the arm and said check that out dad ... we both laughed ...i didn't fall for it ..ha ha

Anyway thinking of the best way to go ...not sure if its the right one ...i can keep looking ...trying to go slow and keep my head .... big decisions ... i could go in at a crazy low price and see what happens ... nothing to loose ....

the pros and cons .... hey you might be rich ...mid week lotto ...

so its 2.58Am ive finished my cuppa ....got the sleepy music on the little speaker ...JBL speaker ...sounds good ...its a new one ...got it a few weeks ago ...i love it ... ive got friday off and the weekend ...will go in on monday was going to take 4 days but ...3 is good ...

Have a great day when you wake ...the mornings are so nice this time of year ....just read a thing on mornings ...and how beautiful they are ...the beginning of a day ...a time when we can say everything is okay ...all is how it should be ... a time for us all to connect to that place within us ...that gives us peace ..... that peace is our connection to the truth ... that is the place i want to be all the time ... slowly let go of the ego slowly move into peace ...

au revoir xx

[monkey_magic]

Hi,

So

1. There r some big steps ahead
2. I'm excited for u
3. I had garlic sauce on the pizza
4. Im also a fan of kalamatta olives and anchovy and had them on the pizza
5. Didnt burn my chin with the cheese
6. Glad you weren't swayed by the estate agents assets
7. For me beer is an acquired taste- not a huge fan
8. It's been a long time since I've listened to sleepy music
9. U must be tough- seperarated & getting by
10. Have a pizza on me
11. The numbers stop at 9
12. And yes, I figured out how to do them.
13. I have a day off work today too- need to study
14. Its a perfect day outside
15. Been really into watching house rules
16. Won 2 meat trays yday
17. Didnt win the lotto:-( so can't join u in house shopping
18. Trump & the Russians- would b interesting
19. Been eating meat from the meat tray
20. I really like my colored hair but wore the wig to work yday with a cap on
21. Still doing pretty well at work
22. The number 1 is a good lotto number and I used it
23. Hope you find the house of your dreams
24. Enjoy your days off work- try not to let the mind think negative thoughts
25. I got pulled over and charged for not wearing a seatbelt
26. I like the sense of freedom of not wearing a belt
27. Couldnt tell the copper that
28. Another fine...

Until next time,

Kind regards & best wishes,

MonkeyMagic.