relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

Hi Simon,

Yes, I read that book years ago...glad you're getting something out of it.

I've never actually had a duck curry ( love duck though with crispy skin).

Yes a drama- less life is a good life.

I've been looking into hiring a campervan. I have the travel bug and am thinking of travelling around for some days then sleeping in the van. Be refreshing to see some different sceneries, go on long walks, visit new places, that kind of thing.

Oh, happy easter to you. It's almost upon us.

[awrinkle_in_time]

hi that sounds like a good thing to do .. good for you ... happy easter ...im having bad thoughts don't care for much at the moment ... i hate these long weekends .. im stuck and have been since thursday ....

[monkey_magic]

Hey,

That doesn't sound too good. Did u want to talk more?

When you've done activity like working or gym or holiday u seem positive, or that's my perception anyway? Whatevers going on I'm sure we can solve.

Are the bad thoughts concerning you? Do u think you'll feel better when the long weekends over? I'm glad you opened up.

[awrinkle_in_time]

might feel better when i go back to work ... the girl i sit next to in the office, I don't like ...im going to have to move ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

wish i felt like writing but i don't ...im in bed and will put on the sleepy music and try to sleep ...dont worry im okay just feeling low and sad ... it will pass .. xxx love you monkey

[monkey_magic]

OK simon, I will eat the duck curry....and I'll have it with extra chilly to burn the crap out of my mouth....:-)

Naw, life's feelings are sucky at times. Don't tell anyone but I can feel like that too...& you're right...it passes...

I think I need some of your sleepy music.

Im relieved you will be OK & looking forward to hearing about your next adventure. Lov u too I'm passing u a cup of strength ( not cement) ok- here take it....(Simon guzzles down the cup of strength and feels like Popeye after his eaten his spinach). BTW has anyone ever told you how big your muscles look after your workout. Nighty night x I'm being a little cheeky but want to cheer you up... 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya Monkey , You could get the duck curry with crispy duck ..that would be nice ... Had a swim this morning was nice the waves were huge ...and dumping ... Just going to find something on Netflix to loose myself in ... I think i am grieving ....not sure ... still feel flat ... feel like sleeping all the time ...just relaxed with no energy .... anyway just getting through ... just went out and had some chips and a nice coffee ... i found a show called the Titan i think its about the end of the world so that should cheer me up ... ha ha ... Hope your Easter is a good one xxx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya , Have had a better day today ... Easter hit me like a ton of Bricks .... Hopefully the week will be a good one .

Hope your day went well and all is good in your house ...Did you eat to much chocolate ...i did ... still feel a little sick ..

I read lot of threads on the weekend , Your A Wonderful Lady .. good night im getting the sleepy music on ..

hey.. are your feet still itchy ...camper-van... do you take the cat and the dog ....keep me posted ..i want to know everything .. sleepy music is winning ..night

[monkey_magic]

Simon, we have now been chatting for nearly 7 months, that's a pretty long time hey. I ate two chocolate Easter bunny's and a block of chocolate but did OK. I also spend hours reading threads, then I can sometimes spend hours replying to them. I do this sporadically so it's OK. My feet are good now, brand spanking new. No cat or dog at home unfortunately, mum won't allow this. Living at home so I don't pay rent anymore & can study-bargain! And I can do a lot more with my money.

Sorry you are still going through the loss of your loved one, i hope your week is a good one too. Let us know how you go. I'll fill you in with my travels once I'm on them. Hopefully my pay comes through today so I can get things moving.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Wow 7 months ...i love talking with you ..its great ...thank you ..its a good thing this service , BB its such needed thing in the world we all live in now ...Yes the Easter break brought back stuff and feelings ...i have those memories so strong in my mind and thats how it is ...maybe another relationship would help ...maybe ill just get so sick of it ill let it go ..Today was okay ...i have lots to be grateful for so thats a plus ....yes reading your comments to those threads was nice ... you are a great support and you say all the right things ...your a good person ... So whats brought on the road trip are you going to hire a camper ... do you go on your own ... Im sure you have a good plan put together ... Stay safe ... look forward to hearing all about it ...