relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Ive been watching comedians in cars drinking coffee ...on Netflix ...its a real feel good ...

[monkey_magic]

Thank you for thinking of me & being beautiful. Its great having online friends that understand...I'm teary- I've been covered with anxiety because the tears wouldn't fall out. Life hasn't been easy recently. Had the best news ever though- no more injections, so no more drugs...so I'm free...I just hope that doesn't change...I'm just not free of what that created- an anxious looking person, not always though. I so want/ need to conquer it...I think the walk did help.

I guess problems can be overcome. U have urs I have mine...its truelly worth celebrating....I've loved chatting with u, still will...it's been worth it. I've learnt how you've travelled, about your journey, I've shared some of mine....ahhhh I'm taking deep breaths...I'm just so glad I can leave so much behind me...

[awrinkle_in_time]

I have found your words in my time of need absolutely priceless Monkey... and i thank you for that ... many times over

Am so glad your off the injections great news ... it will build from NOW im sure .. im so sure it will ...Take your deep breaths and know your beauty ..your kind heart your wisdom ..your humour..all the gifts God gave you ...

All the LOVE in the world to your beautiful heart xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

.. Do you like ice cream ? I love it .. Good Night ...Need to rest my body and sleep xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya .. Hope the day as kind to you ...and your feeling better ..

[monkey_magic]

Thankyou very much simon x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya Monkey Magic ...

Lots of swims in this weather ... how was your day ?

[monkey_magic]

Lots of swims- excellent. Got to love that feeling afterwards.

I've walked, watched movies/TV & currently at a meat raffle~ hope I win something.

[monkey_magic]

....and....she wins a meat tray!!!!

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , good on ya well done ..BBQ all week .. Yes i had a lazy one as well ... Had dinner with some friends tonight which was nice ...

Sleep well ..Goodnight ...