Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying
Hi , your words sound so familiar i totally understand... if it helps I'm with you, by your side, and write it down when you feel low ..write all your thoughts ..for me it helped ...I understand how all the feelings get so strong and its so overwhelming ..if we don't feel this we are not committing ..Communicating is everything and in those early days fear and miscommunication can stuff things up ...that happened to me .. i also think that if someone doesn't want to communicate and understand you for you ...its hard , it then comes down to what we are willing to except .. you deserve the best , we all deserve to feel loved and comfortable to be ourselves ... xx
if you can, a long walk helps clear the head and gives you back your focus ..have you got a family member or friend you can't talk it out with .. I cried for weeks .. i couldn't believe it... but it is passing ..you will feel better ..just look after yourself ...Fell the Love and understanding from everyone hear ...you are not alone beautiful ..
Im going to cry my eyes out now ....no I'm not... i just remembered, its passing 🙂
You are lovely, & excellent & soulful. Cry if u have to let it out, if its still in there for her & you choose to still let her go cry...so therapeutic & necessary.
The beyond blue fever gets to you hey. This place touched me. The spiritual healing, wisdom, kind words, love. I carried on from what I felt here.
Hey Beautiful Lady ... How was your day ? .. Yes i love this site its so nice to feel the support .. and i love to give when i can .. or i try to anyway .. we haven't heard from hope2BHopeful..Hope she is ok ...my day was good real busy at work ...thats ok keeps my mind active and in the right place .. Just saying Hi ...Hope your good ..i know you are ..:)
The Spiritual Healing is happing ... Hey go re-read the love stuff you wrote ... you excelled on that one ... Good night xx
Ive taken ur advice, instead of holding onto how I feel I'm releasing it. I get into the habit of being too strong sometimes, I need to chill. Went for a swim today!!
I re- read the love stuff, its a feel good.
Glad to hear ur spiritual healing is happening, mine too...horay!!
Hi , Feeling better is good , the thoughts of her are almost gone ... an remembering the times that pushed me away ..which brings me back to why it wouldn't have worked ..and that gives me the truth... and when i get in that mind set i have my balance ..it can be lonely , but its real .. easy weekend for me ..a little walking and sleep tired from work , very busy week .. all good just need to keep it all in balance ...i know my signs and I'm acting on them ..which is huge for me .. knowing and acting ..I'm starting to love myself monkey ... A little afraid of that ..but am trying ..
Im so glad your going good you beautiful Lady , well done .. did you swim in the beach or pool ? do you do laps ? Enjoy your weekend Monkey...Stay Chilled xx
I am smiling reading that what an accomplishment!. Yay. And you keep on loving yourself, that is key. You know that old saying, you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else. ( you've given me a good reminder here). Love & respect yourself.
When someone doesn't love or respect you I think you can lose some of yourself.
Had a good weekend went out for a couple of dates but no real chemistry ..Had a busy day at work and on my way home about an half hour drive i started to cry ..like i had to catch up on all the crying i have missed out on ...then later on i was angry as well ... i angry we are not together ...the silly stupib things that would have been so easy to sort ..im a bit better now ..had some dinner with family visiting from vic that was nice .. i just want to be held i want to love and feel ...You are angry ? just let it sit and it will pass .. I'm holding your hand ..Glad you swam ...thats good stuff for the body and mind ..
