Purple

[Purple lady]

Hi

Was recommended to start my own thread so here it is. The gist of it is I am unhappy, unmotivated and don't enjoy or look forward to anything. Am always tired and hate my life!

[Purple lady]

Hi feeling lonely and ggrand

Still here, thankyou so much for caring, it is so lovely of you. I just live day to day feeling disgusting. What is happening with you ggrand. Why is it that you are so unhappy if you would like to talk about. I know you have some really bad days but you are such a trier. I admire that about you

Purple

[Ggrand]

Hello Purple,

Thank you for your post, and your kind words,I'm sorry you are struggling so much..

I will be ok, I've always struggled with sadness, but the psych visit was on topic and it escalated my sadness.

Im sorry your struggling, but at the same time pleased you are ok, my anxiety gets the better of me sometimes I I constantly worry about people I care for. Sophie gently reminded me of that. I will try and keep it under control,

What have you been up to, and how is your precious fur buddy?

I have a Drs appointment soon so I will be out for a few hours,

Please honey, don't feel discussing, you have so many good qualities about you. I will be back later, as I have to go now. Look after yourself.

Kindness only,

Grandy.

[Purple lady]

Ggrand

Why do you not talk about yourself? You are such a caring, giving person who is always handing out to others. Can you tell me more about you and your struggles. I am very interested that you don't say much about yourself. I know for my part the loneliness and the big part my past interferes with my present is a lot to do with my problematic feelings. I'm finding it very hard to find something to join. I need it to be safe, friendly and non judgemental, like these forums. Any suggestions?. There doesn't seem to be much in my area and admittedly I am finding it hard to know what to do because I don't want to around unfriendly people. I will feel completely disconnected from these people, I am also pretty sure that whatever I find to join there will be people that don't like me and that would be very bad for me. I am hating these brick walls which I am probably building. I feel lonely every day of my life. That is not living.

Purple

urple

[Ggrand]

Hello Purple,

My life I keep hidden, it's like a horror movie, I have 2 threads going which has a lot of my life but not into deep details on them, one thread is about my son who I was forced to adopt out, the other is my loneliness and depression, I think on DB thread 2 times, she stopped me from.....and talked me back up.

I am in a deep sadness depression atm, and can't get back up, so really struggling hard to get a bit of lightness today,

The village I live in has around 100 homes, no shop, no pub, nothing, nearest town is 40 kilometres away, nothing much there either, I can't talk face to face with people so don't speak or see people for sometimes weeks at a time.

If I was thinking of joining of joing a type of club? I want kind people who would accept my sadness, I would first look at what the churches have to offer for volunteer, The schools are usually in need of helping children read, or totary club, I'm not sure honey. But I will put my thinking cap on for you. There is a threads here called loneliness not sure of the rest of the title topic, but up right hand corner of this and every page is a search engine, just search loneliness there are some suggestions in there.

Please Purple, look after yourself and do something nice for you. I really need to go my emotions are running riot,

Stay in touch when you are up to it. I don't want to get into trouble again, I really care for you Purple and my care is from my heart, not just word,

kindness always ❤️🤗🌈

Grandy

[Purple lady]

Hi ggrand

You sound so sad and lonely yet you put out so much positivity. You are obviously a very caring person. Why are you in such an isolated place. I have just joined a group that own daxies like my Scooby. I went once and it was nice. But even there I felt disconnected. What is wrong with me. It must be just who I am. Why was I given this personality? I want a different one. I am not a nice person at all. I see all these lovely people and now I feel worse because I am so different. I was hoping to make friends but I feel already nobody is interested. I will try to get the motivation to go to another one and see how I go. This is why I have no friends. I don't connect and am emotionally retarded in that I don't respond yo anyone so of course I can't get close to anyone. I so crave to have a closeness with another human being. What a complicated person I am. Yuck. I just don't like who I am. I don't know about being out with people it just solidifies who I am. I hate being me

urple

[Ggrand]

Hello Purple,

It made me feel so proud of you joing a group and you went once, you enjoyed it but although you didn't feel connected, you will try again, I am so very proud of you.

It might take a few times of going to this or any new group before friendships are beginning to be formed, baby steps, I think when pets, especially dogs are involved, conversations are not that hard, everyone loves there dog, a nice comment to a persons dog should get a conversation up and running, Just say someone said something nice to you about your dog, you would start talking to them about your fur buddy and they will respond to you, everyone loves talking about their pets, so well done.. try to respond or you go up to someone that looks nice and comments about her beautiful dog.

I don't think your complicated at all, I think you are unique, like me shy, but Ihave faith in you. You made the huge step to go.🤗

Geez I had the threat of hospital thrown at me if I didn't agree to be picked up by a volunteer at Mh to take me for walks, you done it by yourself, I couldn't.

Please don't say you hate being who you are, I can see changes ahead for you, you are now pro active, getting out their and trying something.

Im sorry again for my late post, I had a psych appointment last Tuesday and it's knocked me down, I am trying to get back up, but it's hard. To far in this time.

Have you been into any other threads at all, maybe try that, who knows, maybe you've been through what there going through and you have some suggestions that will help them. Positive thoughts and helping others can also help you to recover,

Be kind to yourself,

Love,

Grandy

[quirkywords]

Purple,

You say you find it hard to get close to people and connect to them, yet through your thread you have connected by your words and made a connection with many different people.

You have your honesty and a vulnerability and an interest in others and you are kind.

If you can see what others see in you may start to like yourself a bit. I see this thread as written by someone who is connecting with a variety of people and who is interested and concerned about others.

Quirky

[Purple lady]

Thank you ggrand and Quirkywords

Such nice things you say. It is easier to think you like me when you don't have to meet me. When I say "connected" I don't mean simply talking to people, I mean feeling connected on the inside. I FEEL disconnected. I feel on the outside, no one ever seems to want to include me. It's weird. Like

[Purple lady]

Hi Ggrand and Quirkywords

Thankyou, life's too hard for me

Purple

[Ggrand]

Good Morning Purple,

Nice things are said to nice people, I would be still the same person I am now if I was to meet you. I think if you continue to take your fur buddy to the meetings, over time and speaking to the other people who attend, friendships will develop, Just take things slowly and baby steps, after a few weeks, just keep talking to them, and in time everyone begins to get comfortable with each other, then start to know each other, then hopefully connection should be felt.

Life is hard, but imo it can be good as well, don't give up trying for a happier life, please. Things do change, I'm just curious did you check out any of the other threads, there are so many people who have threads very similar to yours, and are lonely, Some ideas you might be able to use, or just join in the conversation. It's worth a try, plus it will distract you from your sadness while you are reading them or posting in them.

I hope today you see a little light shining through, and it's a better day then yesterday.

Kind thoughts,

Grandy