Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_128]

Hi Shell, I'm ok I think.😳 Finding it hard to keep up with everyone. Think today I might start my BB book and write down things about people so I can look up when I can't remember things about them. I will try and find you to see how your going.

Vel I don't think I have ever seen you be Shell Fish 🐟

you taken one of my sayings,I will give you another one

what the For

Dory😘

[velvetfaerie]

I am so sorry guys I need a good rant. I hope this isn't obtrusive.
WHY are people so SELF ABSORBED? I get texts that read like FB posts. Almost never "hey how are you? what are you doing?" Things that lead into an actual conversation. The dance of conversation!! FFS !!!!!!!
I am so cranky. I am sick to F.......... of caring and helping and asking and offering. I have been really busy as well. No one gives a stuff about my promotion. No one has asked about my dad. No one has asked about me!

I am sick of caring.

ARRRGHH

V.

[Guest_1055]

Oh you poor darling Velv, comforting hug from me to you. Hope you feel it?

And are you stamping your foot there? Hope you do not mind me asking? Because I imagined you are. I mean no offence though. Stamp or rant away, just get it all out.

And now you have me curious as to what promotion you have been awarded. What is it? Is it still to do with lab work with animals?

And your dad is he okay?

I cannot answer your question about being self assorbed as I do not know the answer either. But I do know that I can be quite inward looking at times, and sometimes it makes me feel worse.

Anyway I am hearing you Velv. As to you feeling strange....Mmm not quite sure what to say, perhaps the feeling of being different to everyone else?? Uniqueness?? A good thing I think....

Hope you do feel a bit better Velv.

Masses of hugs to you

shell x

[velvetfaerie]

Shelley you are such a lovely person. I'm ok. My rant helped lol.

yes lab work and animals. Same thing better pay.

Foot totally stamped !!! argh lol!!!

I'm ok I'm very different I know.

dad had an intestinal obstruction. All good now.

how are you Shelley ?

[Guest_1055]

Is it true then Velvet, were you really stamping your foot there? Glad you are okay. Sorry to hear about your dad. That sounds pretty painful. Poor man.

Appreciate you asking after me though. Heaps kind of you.

I guess I am okay too and plodding along also.

I am still going to the gym, are you Velv? I go pretty much every day. But at the moment there is a sort of ache in my back on the side. I was thinking it might be from this new cardio thingy. It is called a powermill or stair climber. My body is not used to walking up lots and lots of steps. So maybe a muscle is being used that is not used to it or something??

I am glad the rant and stamp helped you Velv

hugs

Shell xx

I do feel like I have let myself down today too, as I have only consumed junk. Pure junk....yuck...yuck ( emotional eating big time for me today). I was doing so well.😪

[Guest_1055]

I am glad you are okay"Little fish Dory". If you ever want to find me just come back here. I liked the movie Finding Nemo.

Just keep swimming ....just keep swimming.... says to me don"t give up.

Shell x

[velvetfaerie]

Ah go you Shell! Every day is a great effort. How do you feel?

Yeh muscles hurt when they are bashed around learning new movements. Completely normal. Stair walker things HURT. They give you a hot butt though 😉

I still go to the gym. Not every day though because of time factor but when I go its a double class most of the time now.................

As I only just started to get my energy back because it seems I have a food intolerance. So I have been doing more exercise. Dropped the processed/gluten filled stuff = bloat has gone, energy back up, nasty loo visits gone too. Hmmmmm.

No gym, today for me. Going to see Dr and then mow my lawns.

Be good Shell!

V.

[Guest_1055]

This is just my fed up feeling coming out......

I am tired of being invisible. I am fed up with being mis understood by many people. Why bother coming out from hiding, when no one sees or understands you anyway. Why get up in the morning when there is no point? What is the reason one is on this stupid earth. Why was I even born into existence?? There is no purpose for me being here. I hate it to be honest. I try so hard but still this seems meaningless to me. Everything is meaningless, if you look at deeply enough.

Human existence why??😢

You get born , then eventually you leave this earth. And what for??

[Guest_1055]

So tonight I am yelling out and shouting to God. Why am I here,? I just do not want to be. I hate this. I want to go home, home being where there is no more sorrow, no more tears where there is love that is like no other. I yearn to go there. I just want to be with You. Why am I on this earth?

[Guest_1055]

Thanks Velv,

Currently at gym, but had to talk myself in to going. Was struggling before with things.

Means a lot to me Velv that you gave me your kindness by posting in here to me.