Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[CMF]

Hi Shelley,

I just came accross this thread and I am right there with you, shouting out and i am here for you whenever you need to shout too. I know the feeling of having had enough and wanting to shout it out to just get rid of that feeling. I love what others have said too re relationships, connecting, rejection and Croix's comments re men needing to be the ones to fix things etc.

You also mention that at times you take a break from the forums because you are tired, or don't have a response (I think it was something like this, sorry i am really tired atm and had a quick flick through the thread) or because you feel sad reading others' stories - I totally get this, i am the same.

You are such a gentle soul Shelley. I wish for you to find peace and happiness.

cmf x

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

An awful lot of us here have triggers and the words that represent them. I'd have trouble just writing some of mine right now here in this message.

You are human, nobody would think anything less of you because you react.

Look on the plus side, you recovered enough to explain just about straight away. Quick recovery is a sign of healing.

Take care of yourself Shell

Croix

[monkey_magic]

Hey shell & others,

My brain can be like your brain. I am spaghetti!!

Hope u heal those emotions soon xxx

[Guest_1055]

Hi Mr Croix,

Yes I did enjoy writing that happy memory about the time I was being a shop keeper. I have been thinking about actually emailing to my mum and dad.

And I am guessing your other post was referring to what happened on the BB cafe?? If so, well yeah I think I do sometimes struggle at being rejected . And I fear what people may think of me. Anyway Thankyou for noticing what I said. It helps me feel like I matter. I believe you are pretty good at that. Being observant or something like that.

I hope you are traveling okay there yourself.

Shell

[Guest_1055]

Hello CMF,

Ah I read your post a few days ago, and I heard your shout. Now I am thinking your shout might have something to do with your ex partner and maybe the issues surrounding all that. If so I am sorry CMF.

Thanks for your offer to hear me shout as well. With thankfulness I haven't felt the need for a bit. Which is good. But I still remember the feeling of wanting to shout out. It is like a built up frustration or anger even that just has to be released. Is that what you felt? And being fed up with things, sort of makes me feel like shouting.

Anyway CMF, if you ever feel the need to shout out whatever it is within you. Please feel free to do it here. I will most likely hear it.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

PS..... Thankyou for your kindness in what you said about peace and happiness. I have felt peace before within my heart. It is sort of like a pleasant stillness and like a resting in the fact all is well. May you feel this too CMF deep within your soul.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Ah Steph, I read the last few posts on your thread and one on Taurus's one also. I am aware you may be in the mental health unit at the moment. I am thinking of you, but unsure whether you will read this. I care about you and know you like hugs. So here is a comforting one from me.

Shell xx

[Croix]

Sear Shell~

I'm back again thanking you:) Once again you are helping people. This time your lovely story about the 'surprise' Easter egg in

Forums / Staying well / Store Your Happy Memories Here:

It must have been a real delight to find it there - a reward for being industrious and cleaning out the car:)

Croix (who knows you matter a great deal)

[Guest_1055]

Oh Thankyou Mr Croix, I now have thankful and sort of happy tears just about to fall. You kindness to me does shine through. Plus I desire to be an industrious person and often need to push and discipline myself to go that way. You opened my eyes to see that yeah it is sort of a reward I was given for work.

With appreciation to you

Shell

[Guest_1055]

The tears are falling now, as I believe I needed to hear that I mattered . And the words coming from you seem to have spoken into my heart. Maybe because I see you as a fatherly type person Mr Croix. Or how I perceive partly how a father should be or something .

Thankyou