Just want to Shout out

Guest_1055 · ‎12-11-2016

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

Guest_9809 · ‎06-02-2017

Hey Shell, you seem to be up very late? I hope you're okay.

Sending you some love, and a big hug. Goodnight.

Taurus xx

Wilma1 · ‎06-02-2017

Shelley, thank you for the hug, and here's one back. You sound a little better. It's so good reading how the ups and downs don't keep us down. The comfort is knowing others have been there done that, and come through shining. Good on you Shell. Have a good day. Wishful ( Hopeful)

Guest_1055 · ‎06-02-2017

Hello dear Taurus, Hopeful and anyone else reading

Yes you are right Taurus I was up very late. My body clock is a bit abnormal at the moment. But I am okay, just a bit foggy headed is all. I am guessing you had difficulty with sleep last night too.Poor thing. I am sorry, I long to help you or something.

I care. Here is a hug left here for you, whenever you need it. xx

Yes I am much better Hopeful ( wishful).

And I am also going on a trip down the south coast, it was pleasantly sprung on me a couple of days ago. So yay....yay....yay. I haven't been away on any holiday for a long time. We are leaving today. I am looking forward to it.

So just leaving a bit of love here for everyone in a row of tiny pink hearts.

💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟

Shell xxx

PS...thanks heaps for everyone's kind replies. I appreciate them all. Happy tears!

Guest_9809 · ‎06-02-2017

Morning Shelley. I think you posted your last reply here around 3am, and I arrived just under an hour later. So it sounds a bit like an all-nighter for both of us. I understand that foggy headed feeling, and walking around in a daze. Its hard, night after night.

Thanks for the hug by the way, its so very much appreciated.

A trip away, fantastic! I hope this proves to be a wonderful opportunity to have a really good talk about what you both want. Have a safe trip, and I look forward to hearing from you upon your return. Holidays .... yay!

Love to you,

Taurus xx

Wilma1 · ‎08-02-2017

Shelley, by now you will be on your holiday, Yey, Yey,Yey. Enjoy EVERY second. Hope when you return you can tell us all about it. I'm looking forward to hearing when you are up to it. Wishful. (Hopeful)

Guest_1055 · ‎03-03-2017

If anyone is reading this....well it is only one huge venting session really. An angry, fed up one.

At the moment I am waiting for someone to go out somewhere. But there is so much stuff feeling like it wants to explode. I just want to get it out from me and stomp and stomp on it. I feel sick of failing again and again. I am tired of attempting to verbally speak to people only to find myself awkward, self conscious, wanting to hide or run, fearing of what they may think of me. Hate small talk, I cannot do it. I hate not having nice clothing to wear, sick of wearing the same thing over and over. Sick of eating well for a bit , then wham,stuff up again and go back to junk. I am even getting frustrated trying to type here only to press the wrong keys. Sick of feeling jealous, tired, ugly, unorganized, lazy, unmotivated, undisciplined, awful hair. Anyway I have to go now..... but yeah I am certain there is more stuff.

Wilma1 · ‎03-03-2017

Shel, I'm off the wagon AGAIN also. I've tried the good food, exercise etc etc, but back again, and hitting the wrong keys as I type. No advice just to let you know you're not alone!!!! I will be thinking of you, not that it's any consolation. I've dug some holes in the back yard, and pulled out a tree!!!! Sigh!! Take care. Wishful

Elizabeth CP · ‎03-03-2017

Are you trying to describe me!!!! I want you to know I care & you are inspirational

Guest_9809 · ‎03-03-2017

Oh dear Shell. I guess I am like Elizabeth, you could be describing me there. Ahh ... sorry there is one exception - I am NOT unorganised. Due to my OCD, I am typically VERY organised, to the point of obsession of course. (-:

I'm sorry all these negative thoughts seem to have overwhelmed you today. I could refute everything negative that you said about yourself, but you wouldnt believe me right now anyway. Would you?

Just know that we all see you as inspirational, kind hearted, caring, persistent and just a very beautiful person through and through. Yes we do all care about you, a lot. Just as you always care about the rest of us.

I sometimes think you are too good, seemingly too fragile for this often heartless and thoughtless world Shell. When you hurt, you hurt deeply. I thing we can all see that. But I also know you to be very resilient. I know you will pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again.

Hugs to you beautiful lady.

Taurus xx

Music_Freak · ‎03-03-2017

Oh Shell, I think we are all in the same boat here, I need to get back on the exercise/healthier eating merry go round, but right now I'm just mindlessly watching it spin in front of me, not yet motivated enough to jump on...

I think we both need to push each other 🙂